Happy Friday (Patreon)

Hey tribe! How’s it going? Im good, i moved Monday & my heart is FULL. Although, O and i have been cohabiting for 1 year, this move was different. He moved in with me last summer after we spent a month in Mexico to “set the foundation”. This move was us figuring shit out together and finding a place together. I was having so much anxiety around it, until I realized it was because the last (and only ) other time i moved in with a man was my baby daddy, and yall know how that went lol. Anyway, we finally got keys and got our things in and even though i knew I was supposed to be happy I was finding every reason to have fear or displeasure with the move. I had to have a conversation with myself and really ask WTF is your problem!? What I came up with is Trauma. Im so happy but i cant connect with my joy because the last time i was here it wasn’t how i wanted it. Just here to remind anyone who needs to hear this, Post traumatic baby daddy disorder is real and you must actively fight againts it and fight for your joy. Be happy without reason and accept when things are actually good. One day we wont be this age and there will never be another August 4th 2023! When we leave this world all that will matter is the love we experienced. Take advantage of every mf’n minute your free, healthy and alive and fuck the rest.

Xoxox,

Milah

Ps.

Does anyone else struggle with remembering to be happy and in gratitude?! Lol I am so happy in my relationship, and so mf’n blessed I sometimes have to remind myself what’s actual important, the inanet ans america will have u confused