Update of life and writing. (Patreon)

So as many of you have probably noticed, my writing speed decreased pretty dramatically this last month or so. I was really struggling, forcing out each paragraph, and I wasn't finding myself happy with the end result. It seemed like I was suddenly trying to push myself through a wall of molasses or something.

While writing the second chapter of my new story, I tried something. I didn't take my medication, something that was prescribed for my chronic pain, but was also helping to control my anxiety disorder. I thought that nothing was wrong on that front, but 44 hours after my last dose something wild happened, when the internet says that the last of that stuff should have been out of my system.

I got hit by a huge burst of creativity. Instead of struggling to imagine and write out like 400 words over an entire day, my old mindscape came back. Everything was clear again, I could see how the story went forward, all the details of the scene, the emotions of the people in it. I wrote 1700 words in an hour or two, finishing the draft for chapter 2, then I couldn't stop! I moved on to chapter 3 and wrote a ton of that one too!

I'm at an impasse now. I either take my meds and control my pain and anxiety, but destroy my creativity almost entirely, or I don't and let my mind run free. I think I'm going to choose creativity to be honest, because I was getting pretty depressed over my inability to express my imagination.

I'm going to be trying to test out just how much of the stuff I can take before my creativity is stuffed up.

Anyway, that's just an update on whats going on with me. Sorry to everyone who expected more words from me this month. We'll see how things go as I figure out what's happening.

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