Can I just write about something? (Patreon)

I know Patreon isn't really for this, but I just want to share. I recently completed a trip and am currently reviewing the material. I shot a lot. There's more than a terabyte of stuff in there. My hard drive even told me it was full of so much stuff. I had to buy a 26TB hard drive with the last money. Expensive, but my files will be safe.

I want to go to a new level, finally, everything will go the way I wanted. This will be exploration with a more documentary direction. I've looked at a lot of channels related with exploration and they all have pretty much the same content, and I want to do something between a documentary and a vlog. My friend helped me with video filming and I realized that it would be very, very difficult to shoot this alone.

I'm really overworked right now. It is physically and psychologically very difficult for me to be distracted from work. Realizing how earnings are falling, I begin to get involved more and more in work, and this destroys me from the inside. I know that I need to give myself time and rest, but then the problems associated with immigration come. The person who wrote to me about how the language would help me will never understand how difficult it is to move to another country and face problems. Problems are not solved not because of communication, but because of the system.

I still have not passed my full examination to understand whether my condition has worsened or not. I did an MRI and went to the doctor, but he said that he could not determine from the previous pictures if everything was fine there. That's all because in the new pictures I was taken vertically, and the previous picture was horizontal. I was sent to another doctor, but the other doctor did not see me. I was told that I can take the next picture in 6 months and decide there already. But I already did this MRI with a delay of 3 months. I want to know the result because last time, I treated myself and I think that everything is bad there (and I really feel weird sometimes). But they can’t or don’t want to compare the pictures, so I run around the clinics so that at least someone can help me😥

I want to warn everyone personally. If you wrote to me or asked a question and I do not answer, this does not mean that I do not want to communicate or want to offend you. I quite often avoid social networks and conversations because it is difficult for me. I just can't... And I can't explain why... But sometimes I force myself to read what you write to me😬

Thank you for your attention. If I need to write about something more often, let me know. I have a lot of thoughts