bad night... (Patreon)

 I'm looking for inspiration, but after the "hell talker" has passed. I Feel that my work and my skills as an artist are useless rubbish ... and I want to die ... I hate this feeling ... I have so many cool ideas that I never realized or it was another shit ...

I try to force myself to make a drawing on paper and it stops me that I will make a lot of mistakes in the drawing, it infuriates me. Trying to do something new, asking myself why? For the sake of money, or is it just another pointless porn ... really hard ...

Why I just can’t draw porn and enjoy it + make money. This is the dream of any person. Such an irony, like I have everything and at the same time NOTHING.