Carol Overeats 5272022 (Patreon)

I'm just gonna post the comic blog for those of you who don't keep up with my life:

I had a mild mental break today. A couple of days ago I got exposed to some dust and mold & I think it got into my head enough to start a cascade failure in my system. When certain conditions are met my ability to deny reality and be happy, or at least not miserable, break down to the point where I can’t keep my patchwork mental state all in one piece. Those conditions were met this morning & I spent the day dealing with it. Generally my consciousness sits just behind my eyes. When I get tired my right eye usually shuts down and the left eye does the heavy lifting. Especially at night, or in bed. I consider this state my most usual mode of awareness. Today my left I shut itself off for about 5 hours. I wasn’t blinded and I could force it to open but it wanted to rest so that side of my face said “We’re gonna shut this off for a bit, you drive today.” to my right eye. If I shut that eye my awareness would drop back into the center, but it didn’t want to be there. In fact, even after it came back online it has been periodically shutting back off. I’m sitting behind my right eye as I type this.
Anyway, it was bad but just stopping is not a luxury I have. So I fed grandpa, got him settled back in his chair after lunch, and spent most of the afternoon distracting myself with social media. I couldn’t call up the part of my brain that controls the creation of this comic, so I farted around until I could lay down for a bit. I wasn’t quite able to fall asleep completely, which is a common issue when my allergies are really bad, but I got enough of a rest to limp across the finish line tonight. My head is still out of balance. I would guess that it will be a couple of days before it sets back into my version of normality. I’ll play around with some antihistamines and see if I can get my head to flush at least some of the dust out. They tend to knock me out for the better part of a day so I’ve always used them sparingly. Generally the weekend is okay for that sort of thing, but I’m going to be in charge of grandpa for a week so I can’t just drop out for six hours at a clip.
Anyway, that’s the long excuse for why the new page went up an hour and a half late this time. And also partially why I haven’t been getting much bonus content out on patreon as long as I’m at it. Which undercuts my sales pitch to the point I think I’ll just drop it for this post.
It is increasingly likely that Grandpa will live with us for an extended period of time before any kind of professional care situation can be sorted out. It’s not ideal, but it is reality. What that will do to my business I’m not sure. My guess is it will not improve anything. I’ll just keep going until I can’t anymore. Until next time, I’m out!

Additionally I intended to color this but I couldn't get it done before I started to run out of steam.  Hopefully things will at least settle into some kind of predictable pattern soon so I can post with some sort of predictable regularity.  I thank those of you who have stuck with me through this very much.  If nothing else having some extra money takes the edge off the misery of things.  Anyway, try not to think about me too mcuh.  Have a nice wank and stay frosty till next time.