February Update! (Patreon)

Hey everyone! Just wanted to let you know how I've been doing. Truth be told, I hit a major roadblock in late December/early January. Depression.

A combination of the situation with my aunt I mentioned back in November, two fuducking years of Covid, 6 months of living alone for the first time ever, seasonal depression, a horrible existential and drunken new years, finally catching omicron at the start of the month after planning a bunch of things that week, and other things I can't mention, altogether almost made me crack. That was probably the worst depression of my life up to this point, and it takes time to heal from that kind of thing.

So. I was depressed in late December/early January. Honestly, I'm still not 100%, but I'm feeling a lot better now. It's amazing how much the bad thoughts go away once you start recovering. For awhile there I was dreading any moment alone with my thoughts. The moment my mind wandered it would go to thoughts of death and despair. Not fun.

Of course, that made January a bit slow for drawing. I was gonna take some time off this month anyway, but it was a shame that I was depressed for most of it. Last week was the first week I worked M-F. I had to work my way up longer and longer each day, but I started feeling burnt out again towards the end of Friday. Regardless, I pushed myself through it and finished the last reward today, a day late.

I'm gonna have to take a few days off this week. Need to recharge again. However, in a little bit, I'll be posting a poll for this month (February). It's gonna be another experiment with poll types I can do. Also, I'll be planning to finally do another request stream this Friday, so keep an eye out for that.

In November I think I said I'd be planning on reopening commissions in either Jan or Feb, and well, that definitely isn't happening. However, I closed the monthly Patreon reward tiers (25$ and 50$) this month, so now I can finally stop worrying about them every month and hopefully get some work done on comms! As always, I'll be posting them as soon as they're done!

Finally, I know I talked about some heavy stuff, but I'd say I'm about 75% recovered from the big sad at this point. You never realize how truly bad it got until you're on the other side of it. I've still got some stuff to sort out but truthfully, I am feeling better. I'm hopeful for the future now that I am starting to be able to focus again.

I hope you all have a good February.