Week 44 - Melee, Ghosts & Existential Terror (Patreon)

Turns out we've been a week behind! I did TWO, week 32 updates and nobody noticed! Gosh what am I paying you guys fo- oh... wait.

The Melee Video is coming along well! I expect 'Part 1' to be done this week. In the meantime I'm also handling a few requests from $20 patrons but nothing that should get massively in the way. Following that as you know, will be a video on player GhooOooOosts.

I've also been talking to a few more people interested in tool reviews after seeing my PixelFXDesigner video. I'm being cautious with this stuff as before, and will never take any cash payment for this kind of thing but there could be some stuff to look forward to on that front too. 

YYG has also been in contact about some potential freelance work, which I'm interested in but only if I can do it without impacting my patreon work in a big way. Luckily the scope is seeming to be quite small and something I can juggle. 

It's weird, I have an attitude of never really wanting to say no to any opportunity like this, or opportunities in general? But the nature of running a Patreon like this one, honestly at least, somewhat precludes certain opportunities. Because you guys are my literal, month to month wages. You pay my bills, keep the roof over my head and put food in the fridge. A big freelance project would mean putting my Patreon on hold, and even if the project paid well, putting this Patreon on hold at this stage in its growth is something I'd be terrified of doing.

In a way I was quietly relieved when I didn't make it into Stugan, because would I have ever been able to repair the damage that 2 months of absence would have done? Even if I was still writing reports here etc, that's not the work you are at large here paying for. This stuff is a tricky space to navigate as you guys are literally my wages at this point, and putting you perhaps irreversibly on the line for other opportunities is terrifying.

It's not a problem by the way, I'm insanely happy to be doing this stuff! And I'm able to take breaks, direct my own work and not burn myself out over here far better than the YouTube ecosystem allows for. Which is why anything that could threaten this awesome thing we've built together is so scary! Which is just something I'm not used to feeling when presented with cool opportunities. I just want to say yes to everything! That's the real problem.

Anyhoo. I can't speak to if there will be livestreams this week, or if I'll just want to put my head down and work. We'll play this one by ear (as usual).

Thanks everyone!

-S