What’s next? (Patreon)

Hello,

I think we all already have seen what is going on in the world right now. I couldn’t really get my thoughts together and write anything for a few days, but it’s time now.

First of all, I’m safe and out of there. I think I mentioned before that I was taking a work trip to Russia in February, and was also visiting my parents who live there (I moved a few years ago to a different country and we have less contacts right now). I haven’t seen them for a while, and with pandemic that heartbreaking feeling of being tore apart from your roots and loved ones got me pretty hard. I was very happy to finally get my chance to hang out, talk and support them in this pretty tough moment of grief and sadness. (If only we knew, lol)

And yet, two days ago I literally had to pack my suitcases and run away. I hugged my parents for the last time in a while, talked to them and walked with our doggo pretending this was a normal day. Then I returned to my flat and cried for a couple of hours waiting for my airport ride. I was not sure I’m safe till the moment when the aircraft took off.

I won’t lie, that day and night were the roughest in a while. I’m still not sure if I have accepted everything. I’m still not sure what to do with all these feelings and fear.

I managed to get some of my work done back there before things got insane too.

And I wanna assure you my Patreon page will be running as normal for at least another couple of months. I have enough projects prepared in advance, I will keep working on the others here. I simply can’t drop it all and pretend I’m ok with that.

Cosplay has been my biggest safe space since I became a teenager. I used to create beautiful outfits to run away from the reality where I was bullied at school. Later on I started making outfits for other people, and cosplay has become my work instead of being just a hobby.

Nearly a decade after it all started I found cosplay to be the main source of my calmness and happiness during pandemic. It was my beacon of normal life and hope in the world madness.

And today I am here to hope this amazing hobby and passion will get me through the darkest time in my entire life. I can’t stop and don’t wanna do that. My main goal was always to entertain and bring joy with it to myself all and my community. So here I am to confirm that things won’t change so far.

I will keep sharing 3 full projects a month, will keep creating new outfits and will try to stay calm, positive and share the same passion with you. We all need something good in this period of time I think.

There have been a few projects that I had to drop back there cause I couldn’t pack them with me, but this is going to be a conversation for another time.

Right now I wanna thank you all for being with me and supporting me during these times. I am grateful and can’t even express it enough.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Please stay safe.

We will get through this.

Zoe