hi! (Patreon)

hey so i wanted to hop on really quick and tell you guys a thing!!

first of all, i have 2 nsfw audios scheduled to go up on here before the end of the month but i forgot to record the airplane early access so i am actually going to be recording 3 instead of the 2. i’ll be posting the poll for the other 2 audios either today and tomorrow and record and post the airplane audio tomorrow so i hope you guys are hype!

second of all, i don’t plan to announce this publicly but i’m probably going to take a break from GWA in September and not post any content over there. idk if any of y’all know what happened last night but another audio of mine got deleted and then reinstated. my audios haven’t been performing at the standard i set for myself and i’ve been getting downvoted for no reason and i have no idea why. for the last few months i’ve been just trying to focus on myself and making my audios better and i would be lying if i said it’s not discouraging to know there are people who want me to fail when i’m just trying to commit myself to making the best content i can make.

this is no way meant to be me complaining because i am grateful for everything i have and all of you being here. if i’m being 100 percent honest, being a part of gonewildaudio hasn’t been good for my mental health since last year. there was a while at the beginning of the year where i didn’t want to be alive because of stuff related to GWA. i only really post there because i treat it as “advertising” for my patreon. it’s gotten to a point where i get extremely anxious every single time i post on there or comment on anything because i know so many people want to see me fail and i’m going to get reported or someone is going to make me feel like a crazy person simply for being a woman on the internet.

i just thought i would let y’all know because i know a lot of you take your leave at the end of the month and look forward to my content over there and i always want to be completely transparent with you guys about anything going on in my life. if i change my mind about this, i’ll be sure to post about it on here and i’ll still continue posting audio previews and stuff on my reddit profile as well.

i know that in the grand scheme of my life, downvotes and shitty dms and comments don’t matter. but sometimes being a girl on the internet feels like i’m the girl in the princess and the pea, laying there in my big comfy bed and still bruising because of something as small as a pea hidden underneath.

anyway that’s it. i hope you guys have a nice rest of your day. thank you for being here and enjoying what i make. if it wasn’t for all of you, i seriously don’t know what i would be doing with my life these days and that is never lost on me. i appreciate you.

-m