AN HONEST CHAT (Patreon)

Hey fam,

So I gotta get a bit real here for a sec, I'll try to keep it short-ish but regardless, if you're reading this thank you for doing so!

Essentially, ya boi is struggling a bit right now. I don't know if it's a mental health thing or a worn out thing from all the comebacks we've had or a "I've bitten off more than I can chew" type thing or some combination of all those but I'm struggling.

I'm finding it really really hard to motivate myself into filming for a lot of things. Some things are easy because I'm so invested in those groups that it's much simpler, but for a lot of the stuff it's hard, not because I don't love the groups obvsiouly but just cause... it's a lot right now.

I really like the plan and the idea of the schedule that we've got atm with the different shows and everything but right now I'm very much struggling to get it to work (as some of you have probably noticed lmao). I'm also in the process of trying to actively lead a healthier lifestyle with regular exercise and good eating & sleeping habits and as anyone who has tried knows, enforcing a new routine takes some time to make work.

Basically, I think I just need to slow down for a bit. For the time being I'm going to really focus on the things I most want to be filming and take the time to figure out how I can best make this work for myself. I'm hoping that by lessening the pressure I've put on myself it'll at least partially take away this mental block I've got going on and allow me to ease into a more stable and regular routine.

As always I'm immensely grateful for your patience and care and, to be clear, I do not expect you to stick around if the content you're here for isn't coming as regularly as you'd like. I will do my best with everything, it's just that right now my best is a little limited.

Requests will still be coming at the end of each week along with Hotel Del Luna when I can and there will still be regular content it just might be more focused on a smaller selection of groups for the time being (i.e. Le Sserafim, Dreamcatcher, Fromis and some others). It may also come at random times and on random days but we'll see.

Once I'm ready, I will start re-introducing other things back into regular rotation and we'll go slowly from there.

Again, if you're reading this, thank you for doing so. I have a lot of love for you all and I appreciate you greatly for being the reason I can have this flexibility in my life.

I have Yunjin & Chaewon's Lee Mujin Service episodes on the way and I'll also (finally) post the blocked comeback show stages.

See you later,

- Kaia

p.s. any unsolicitated requests or messages/comments like "when will you be watching..." will be ignored or deleted. The last thing I need rn is more pressure so please be mindful of that, thank you