Just realized it (Patreon)

I never told this to anyone. But I just realized that I got serious problems with alkohol. Yes, I'm addicted. No matter how hard I try I'll never be able to improve or even keep up with my schedule while my hands are shaking and my head hurts and I'm sleeping for 10 hours to just feel better. Thats why I needed breaks and thats why the breaks never helped. It hurts, because I'm very ambitions and I felt that with bad shape I can't do my work as good as I want to. I just lied to myself so many times and I'm so confused right now and I don't know what to do. Been drinking for 14 years straight and everyday. I need to get rid from alcohol or it will get rid of my body and soul. No idea when I'll return. I'll just extend the break to one more month with a hope that it would be enought. I'm really sorry for dissapointing you again. Just feeling so pitiful and helpless. 

Vorifax