Survived Animazement (Barely) (Patreon)

I don't know if it was the 9 hour drive or if I rolled a lot of ones health wise, but holyyyy crap did this convention wipe me out. The heat, my feet, my muscles, my stomach, my throat...everything has been rough as fuck. Oh and I cut my finger pretty good with an xacto blade while trying to trim prints during set up on the first day. I didn't faint this time though, so that was a small victory! Heh.

Selling went well and people were super nice, though! I had to keep cough drops handy because my throat has been wrecked for like...10 days? Since the day our AC went out and we used a window unit which I'm 90% sure had some kind of allergen in it that started sending me into uncontrollable  coughing fits. '-' Luckily I feel like I'm finally healing from that though I still have a kind of sexy smoker voice. ;D It's stopped hurting though so yey.

Sorry for taking so long to update! I know it's been almost a week since we got back on Monday, but I had a doc appointment in Nashville on Tuesday, and family stuff on Weds, and then bf's birthday was yesterday. (I'm working on a surprise art for him which will also be shared here and added to my store eventually~)

And yeah. I'm still super exhausted but I'm trying to crawl back into gear.

More venting for those who aren't tired of my complaining yet: I AM SO PISSED at my doctor in Nashville. He second guessed me on all my symptoms, shrugging off everything. He even asked me what I meant by "inflammation" - like wtf you think I mean? Stiff, swollen, puffy, achy. Y'know, like the definition of inflammation. I have chronic pain in my shoulder and hip, flare ups that feel like "charlie horse" cramps that go all the way down my legs when they get too warm (showers especially, but even being under a warm blanket for 10+ minutes can do it), I get red hot ears randomly, rashy face/splotchy skin in the sun (and sometimes randomly/constantly), tinnitus has been chronic for 4+ years, my nose is almost always drippy, reynaud's episodes as well as what looks like blood pooling (purpling) in my feet, my torso nigh always feels feverish, sleep never feels restful, I lose weight unintentionally because I have to eat constantly to maintain. Temperatures over 75 degrees are likely to either make my aches flare, make me wiped out for a day or more after, or make me react like I got food poisoning.

All this and more - but the only thing he wrote down on my appointment review was "reynaud's, syncope, and anxiety." Like I tried to explain that I have anxiety ABOUT MY GODDAMN SYMPTOMS because I feel confused and terrified of what the fuck is going on, but nah, let's convolute that with a mental issue instead. :/ I have plenty of friends that have to deal with genuine clinical anxiety, and that's not what I've got going on. I have some social quirks and hang ups, and I definitely think I have ADHD, but there is no reasonable basis for blaming my array of physical crap to that. It simply doesn't correlate, and I don't have like ANY thoughts/feelings that would come along with anxiety. I just have the reaction of "shit, I hope this isn't going to be the rest of my life" whenever I'm feeling terrible. It's more discouraged and frustrated than panicked. Sometimes angry.

Also I kind of doubt the doc would've put reynaud's down if I hadn't kept my shoes off for a while and pointed to how my feet get purple and how I can then draw on them in white by pressing on them. It's wild. :o

Anyway, kudos to you if you made it through all that! :D Sorry if it's a bit of a downer. I don't really feel anything about it right now, just kind of putting it out there to explain why I'm behind on everything. Life is weird!

In good and probably overwhelming news, I have three more conventions lined up this year: Anime Blues Con, The Scarefest, and AWA. I'm gonna have to try to manage my time as best as I can to survive those and get my store straightened out...

I think I'll be simplifying the Patreon description and tiers soon, with more focus on printed rewards because I can make those more easily than new drawings, and Dark/Nude Gold is officially on hiatus until when/if my health improves. ;n; Too many balls to juggle.

Thank you all for your patience and support, and no judgement if you need to leave the patreon for not meeting your expectations. I'll be making a post this week about sending out thank you prints/stickers/etc to supporters to try to make up for the lack of activity and new work. Stay tuuuned~