Huge thanks (Patreon)

I want to say you huge thanks for your support. Probably you even can’t imagine how much it means for me. Yes I am in pretty safe place now, my apartment is still ok, my relatives are alive, but my mental health is not ok. I’m not living now I’m just existing… I’m waking up with new. I need to check how the night was. Did they bombed my city? After that I call to my husband and my mom. Then streams of news, terrible news pour down on me. the Russian army is a refuge for murderers, rapists and looters. I can help refugees and our army because of you. But time to time I don’t have power enough for every day things. I know that many people are more worse them me now. But it is extremely difficult to witness all this. I'm not crying, I can't. I'm just terrified all the time. I know and believe that evil will be punished. But when? Every day, our security service publishes intercepted telephone conversations between Russians and their relatives. And you know what? It is normal for them to rob abandoned houses. They even steal frying pans. When they say that their tankers raped a 16-year-old girl in threes, then laughed. When the food was over, they took it from the locals. If someone did not give killed them. And if the locals did not have meat, they ate dogs.
Therefore, on the one hand, I can not complain, but on the other hand it is very difficult to withstand it, even just in the form of information. I remember the stories of my grandmother when the Germans occupied our city. Such terrible stories I do not remember. I do not whiten Hitler's Nazis, but the Russians are even worse than them.

My new condition is prostration.

I know and believe that we will win. I'm just scared to imagine how many people will suffer ...