Pieces. (Patreon)

"Sometimes I wish I wasn't so forgiving, so patient. I wish it was easier for me to dismiss people, write them off, and hold grudges. I think about how much easier my life could be if I were able to build walls, instead of building doors that don't lock. Because that's the thing about doors, people will use them to walk in. And just as easily, walk out.

I wish it didn't take being broken down to nothing to finally be numb. Indifference is something I rarely feel, and my tolerance for pain is high. So if I've ever forgiven you, it doesn't mean you didnt crush me. It just means there were still pieces of me left."

Context: A very old photo I found taken by @n.e.l.z accompanied by a note I wrote to myself on a day I was feeling some things.