I feel blue (Patreon)

I don’t know what to say. I am depressed since 2018 or 2019 year, I am not diagnosed tho, I don’t have any official mental disorder but my symptoms indicate depression:

1) I am always sad, even when I feel happy I am sad somewhere deep inside because there are some reasons that don’t let me feel really happy 🙇🏽‍♀️

2) I think often think about my death.

3) I cry to much, that destroys my physical health. Sometimes I can’t just go to study and i can cry in the bus 🚌 or in the class, It’s really horrible to leave your house during an exacerbation of depression😖

4) I often feel like I have a biopolar disorder but it’s not biopolar. I am a simple woman, one part of me is normal, but the another part of me says “your life is shit, you are trash, your life is a mistake”

You don’t have to be a doctor or a psychologist to understand that a person has depression. Depression isn’t a sickness but it makes people to die.

I dream about saving myself... but it’s impossible