[Response] One Piece (Patreon)

I'll try to keep this short. 

The same part of my personality that gets me super involved in anime and that inspires me to  analyse characters/scenes and talk about them for hours...  The same part of my personality that makes me care so much about patrons and the support you give me that I don't ever take a day off and make sure to post videos every single day and stream for hours whenever I can... Is the same part of my personality that gets hurt when people call my thoughts stupid or mock my opinion.

As I've mentioned just recently, when I feel hurt, I don't get sad, I get angry. But today I actually feel sad. 

It seems like a lot of you have a problem with me defending myself from people calling me stupid or mocking my thoughts. It's not like I had a problem with them disagreeing with me, like I already said before, everyone is entitled to their own opinion (just like I am to mine), it was about how they went about doing so. There is no reason to call a person stupid just because their thoughts are different than yours. 

You can easily skip past the stuff you don't want to watch, so I don't really understand the point of telling me how "disappointed" you are in me for standing up for myself. 

If you want me to be the kind of reactor that can just ignore comments like that, then you're asking me to turn off a part of who I am and I won't do that. Because watching anime would not be fun if I had to switch off that important part of myself that cares so much about people, stories and characters. 

If you want me to be a different reactor, I suggest you watch a different reactor. I am not chasing anyone away or trying to be rude, I am just being upfront about who I am. If you don't like who I am, that's fine, I'm not asking you to. But I'm not going to change. So before you spend any more money on my content, I am warning you now, I will always defend myself from patrons calling me stupid or mocking my thoughts. I will always explain myself in 5 different ways, because I am trying to be understood. I'm not a first language English speaker and not all of you are first language English speakers either. Sometimes it takes 5 different explanations of the same thing for one person to "get" me or what I'm saying. 

I care about that 1 person. I care about understanding others and about being understood. So if you have a problem with that side of me, or if you are the kind of person that wants to be able to tell someone their thoughts are stupid, then I'm not the reactor for you. 

That's okay. Some people are here to be entertained. But as I've said many times before, I am not an entertainer. 

I love anime, and I love talking about anime, and I value being understood and understanding others. I value communication. If you don't like that and you're just here to be entertained, I am sorry to say you will keep being disappointed. 

I just wanted to make this post to be clear about that. 

I'm not going to be reacting to One Piece on Friday, like I usually do. I'll get back to it on Tuesday. Thanks for understanding. 

XXX

PS. I decided to block 4 people and delete their comments after yesterday's post. For the most part, I try and work things out BEFORE blocking people, but... In this case, I just felt really hurt and didn't want to deal with people who seemed like they don't care to understand where I'm coming from anyway. It was never about people agreeing/disagreeing with me, if you listened to even half of what I was saying, you'd know that. It was about HOW people went about telling me they don't agree with me (mocking me, calling me stupid or saying my opinion is wrong for example).