just a little lost (Patreon)

Just some vent art. I feel kind of bad having such a difficult time existing despite all of the friends and love and support I have. Sometimes, simply knowing you're all out there is really helpful - sometimes it's not, and those latter times feel the worst. Like I don't have the right to be sad. I mean logically, I have depression - sometimes I get sad, and I struggle even with all of the love and care I receive.

Sometimes I make mistakes and nothing I can do will reverse them; maybe a bad day at work, maybe nothing at all. Just... sad, you know? It sucks. Being sad is awful when you have so many people who try to cheer you up and they can't because something inside of you isn't... wired right. They're sending transmissions and no matter how you adjust yourself, you can't receive them, but you know they're there.

I dunno; tomorrow is Monday, and tomorrow is going to change a lot.