My drawing biography (Patreon)

It sounds trite, but I always drew as soon as I got a pencil in my hands.
Since I was often alone in my childhood, I constantly watched Disney cartoons on my VHS tapes and unconsciously learned some solutions in drawing characters. I have never been drawn to draw landscapes and I still remember my cop cat with a frontal gun which I drew on a piece of wallpaper when I was 7-8 years old.
I remember that I even adopted facial expressions through these cartoons and characters.
In many ways, my mom influenced my art future. I remember how I was impressed by the rare moments when she drew funny dolls for me. She is a self-taught artist and worked as artist for some time, but then her life turned in a different direction.

When i was 10 my mom began to look for a professional art school for me, since
on the all courses she took me to I was stronger than the children there and the teachers said they didn't know what to teach me.
Somehow it turned out that I developed better in this field, which is probably why I have a lot of gaps in other areas.

My mother probably spent half a year to find our Kyiv State Art school, which was accepted from the fifth grade, although then we were late for exams so I stayed there for preparatory courses for exams, where the teacher began to teach me how to hatch and what the volume is.

A year later I passed the exams and got about 86-96 points out of 100, which was one of the best indicators.

I studied at this school for 7 full years till my 18. In general this school taught me the whole academic base. We started there with watercolors of landscapes and still lifes, and ended with oil paints and drawing a full-length figure.
But the only thing is, it took away the opportunity for me to develop my own style, fantasize and do something for myself. I didn't know then that it was possible to be a character artist, so I stopped drawing my anthropomorphic animals. And even when I wanted to draw some of my ideas not related to the classical school, the teacher rejected these ideas. During school, I was sure that further I was on the way to monumental painting.
This school as a whole is preparing for the Art Academy and I really wanted to go there further. But.. when it was time I got scared. I didn’t personally know a single teacher there and I didn’t have money (which is important for admission to such universities) and I decided that I couldn’t enter. So I didn't even try. I enrolled for free education in a rather useless university for me on the Photo and Video Design department. During that period, I sometimes began to return to some of my fantasy images in drawing.

And the only useful thing that I got from this university of design is my interest in digital art. For the full picture, when you study in an academic art setting, you automatically don't take everything digital seriously. I then believed that a real artist should stretch the canvas himself and be all smeared in oil paint. By the way, I never wanted to sit in front of the computer in the office. The very idea both scared and irritated me. But then when I realized that I needed money, I had to look for a job in the office, because I didn’t know where else I could be useful.

In response to a comment from Helene, I never drew something in my notebooks/sketchbooks during the lessons or something and did not invent stories for my characters. I have always had and still have problems with fantasy and I have always been more interested in studying of object than the story of it.
I always need to sit comfortably and figure out what exactly I want to draw. Ideas and images never come out of me just like that unless I spend some specific time inventing and drawing for myself. And then my brain starts producing different ideas, and of course most often before the sleep.

I almost never draw anything other than figures, except for landscapes at school. I still have different folders and collections of examples of good backgrounds and objects, but for now I'm still not very interested in drawing of it. I don't really like to draw hard surfaces or air, which is what landscapes are made of.
I really like the idea of soft touchable organic objects that have properties that change under the influence of another object, how bodies, bones, animals, large and small forms of it are built, this captures me and does't bored me (more or less, haha).

And all my exercises are my instagram. When I was in Ukraine, I occasionally went to Academy of arts for quick life figure drawing or Drink & Draw thing, but quite rarely, because I still didn’t like a lot of things there. I'm a little tired of the classic same-type poses of all models, so it's easier to study mew things through photos.

I think that's it and if somebody has another questions i'll be glad to answer it, and still, sometimes I can help with your art, guys, so feel free to reach me out, kiss hugs <3