[Blog] Ramblings... (Patreon)

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So, I’m exhausted.

I’ve begun to neglect my health, drawing feels impossible some days, and I suspect it’s only a matter of time before I fail and fade out. I took a break and now I feel too paralyzed to reliably resume work.

Why do I feel like this so suddenly? Is it my work habits? Have I forgotten something important on the path that took me here? Perhaps I’m just under too much pressure… Between my usual responsibilities, financial burdens, and terrible home & work environment. Maybe this was inevitable.

Perhaps I just lack passion in my work? Maybe I don’t have a reason to be excited to draw…?

When was the last time I created interesting female Link illustrations? Or an image set, like Fall Brells? When was the last time I did anything even remotely creative in concept or execution? When was the last time I created something purely because I wanted to? Or the last time I actually enjoyed creating? The last time I experimented & explored? The last time I felt free to create whatever I wanted? I can't easily remember an answer to all of those...

Maybe I need to make some changes to alleviate pressure where I can. Perhaps I’ve gotten too trapped in a routine that it has become difficult to deviate from it, and I need to offer myself way more freedom. Or maybe I just need a better chair and a cleaner workspace… Maybe I need to eat better... I dunno.

That’s it for this short blog post. I just wanted to share some of what was going through my head, which is what these posts are supposed to be about when I don’t use them to simply showcase recent work.

Don’t forget to eat & sleep.