**IMPORTANT** (Patreon)

I will keep you all updated on my decision(if I decide to shut down Patreon for January; possibly longer)

I know the spiraling I’m experiencing right now will only hurt me a lot in the long run but I haven’t been in such a bad mental/emotional place in a very long time and self destructing unfortunately is the only way I know how to cope with the amount of hurt I feel. Going to try to spend some time with people i trust have my best interest and will maybe get me back on the right track. Nothing will heal this loss but I’m hoping I don’t default to tearing the rest of myself apart and simultaneously ruining what I was trying to accomplish. At the same time though it’s hard to not feel like it’s all pointless right now though.

I appreciate you all for supporting me and even more so for supporting Hatchi and I can’t help but feel like I failed everyone tonight.