I'm A Dip: Apology and explanation (Patreon)

Sorry, no scripting today either. It'll happen when I announce it, just keep an eye on the feed. 

What happened? I underestimated how much the past few days would affect me mentally, overestimated my ability to deal with a shrinking self-imposed deadline and just plain forgot I was still recovering from a minor meltdown. I was a dip and I apologise.

Of course, when I say I'm a dip, I don't mean it as in "I'm a weak individual" or "I can't do anything right", I mean it more as in "I need to take better care of myself." Dealing with mental issues such as Aspergers in a career is tough: you need to have an intimate knowledge of your limitations, and when you've spent the majority of your life thinking you're just lazy and your limitations don't exist, it can be hard to deprogram that.

If I have to take a short break to detox my brain after a string of uncontrollable circumstances overload me, it can delay the script or episodes and yes, that can be annoying. But if I try to push forward out of obligation it could lead to far worse consequences such as sub-par quality, depression  and ironically, far longer delays as I keep falling into the cycle.

Many of you guys cite my consistent output as a major draw to my patreon, and the reason I've been able to keep it consistent is through knowing when to stop when I need to. Those who've been here for a while know that I've had to take a week off every now and then.

For those of you out there with ASD: The difference between Laziness and Self-care is one of the most important things you can learn to distinguish. Think of it like this: Imagine a taxi driver who pulls a twenty-hour shift and crashes the cab after falling asleep at the wheel. Did he fall asleep because he was lazy? Or was it because he was exhausted?

It's unfortunate that I still fall into the trap of thinking I can keep going through mental exhaustion without ill effects due to always comparing myself with people whose brains work differently than mine. I need to remember that it's those differences that give me the wit, recall and personality that got me here, making money doing what I love in an exciting field. My figurative glasses broke, and instead of waiting for the new pair to be delivered, I held my head two inches from the screen and yelled "I can still do this!" as the eye-strain headaches started.

Thanks for your patience and understanding, and the delay shouldn't last more than a week (Not forcing a deadline, just going from experience). 

See you in scripting!