Insecurities & Selfportraits (Patreon)

"But Lea, how do you find the courage to take selfportraits and post them online? I feel like I am not pretty enough."

This is a sentence, I hear more often than I'd like to.

I think we all have our little (or big) insecurities, and sometimes we let them stop us from living life to he fullest. The good news: we can work on this and even overcome them!

When I started taking selfportraits and showing my face on social media in general, I was so so nervous about all of my insecurities. It was hard to look at the photos from my sessions since a lot of them caught me in unflattering angles. But I did not stop to do it, because there also were some pictures that made me feel so confident, when the lighting hits just right, and the angle is flattering.

So I did more self portrait session, and after a couple of months I noticed, that I got used to my face. I looked at myself in so many different angles and lighting situations, that I simply got USED to it. Looking in the mirror is simply not the same since we see the inverted verison of ourselves there, and that's why we might feel insecure in photos or videos that show us "correctly".

I still do have insecurities, would you believe me if I told you that I was insecure about my hair for this shoot?

I bet you don't! Usually I wear wigs for my selfportraits since my own hair is not as longs as I'd like it to be. But for this session I wanted to overcome this insecurity and I had two goals:

1. prove to myself that my hair can look great even if it's shorter than my wigs

2. prove to myself that it is fine if my hair doesn't look perfect and that I can still create beautiful photos

Luckily, I love how the photos turned out, and even though I still want to grow my hair longer, I feel confident to share the photos from this session with the world.

So: if your insecurities are holding you back from creating art, try to get out of your comfort zone, one step at a time. You are not alone and I bet y'all are the most wonderful human beings ❤️

ps: here is another result from my latest shoot, you see it first hehe!