Late night life update: (Patreon)
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Hey. Been a minute.
As you have seen on Patreon, I am going back and forth between ok days and not so ok days. Having cPTSD and flashbacks, I am just struggling to be a functioning human being.
Iām hyperfocusing too hard on my favorite things which right now is anime and gaming. I am also struggling with drinking and smoking. I hate admitting it but, accountability does wonders so I might as well tell yall.
I found a counselor to talk to and really start letting shit go. Itās HARD. My brain wants to hold onto it and not let it out. Hell, even you guys know more than my parents do. That one thing especially, my parents donāt know, and I hope to god they never doā¦ it was too traumatizing.
I think because this part of my journey is just starting, my Patreon is taking a hit, and I wanted to come on here and explain that. Iām really trying to hermit less. Iām really trying to drink and smoke less, and itās taking so much energy. I started smoking to be able to film a video, freaked out and had a flashback from that, and have just been posting anime only basicallyā¦
Like I always say and will never stop saying: I really appreciate you guys. I know following and subscribing to me on here isnāt the best right now, and it probably wonāt be for a bit, but Iām glad youāre here. I appreciate you sticking around when a lot of irlās didnāt, and wonāt. Iām keeping everything at the $2 tier cuz I canāt be consistent yet. Thatāll take time. But to those of you here, youāre helping me afford my appointments that me and my parents canāt fully afford, and I am so grateful.
Iām doing my best. I am working at this with what little energy I have in my body, but dammit itās all I got. And thatās ok. I can do it.
AnYwAyS, hope you all have a lovely evening. I am hanging out with my sister in law as we pack up to go to SF as a family tomorrow to Sunday.
Oh: THIS DOES MEAN DEMON SLAYER WILL BE LATE, ALONG WITH LISAāS THE FIRST TAKE VIDEO. Iāll post em Sunday night!
Ok, Iām gonna head to bed. I just needed to get that out. Love you guys ā¤ļøāš©¹ā¤ļøāš©¹ā¤ļøāš©¹
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