Cotton Candy 🩵🩷💛💜 (Patreon)

On my quest of healing and thriving, I am seeing how much of my inner child I need to also heal.

She is so broken and beaten down. She is truly the one that is afraid and scared of life and the world. So I find myself buying more “child-like” things, with my “child money” (my job is so low pay it’s like an allowance).

It’s really hard not being able to take care of myself and even be able to take care of her too. But when I can, it’s amazing. Doing it myself. I’ve always hated relying on my parents for things and for money (even when I lived with him cuz he would go from “it’s our money buy whatever you want” to “it’s MY money stop wasting it”, so I still relied on them 🙃🔫)

Slowly unraveling my fear and hatred and depression and anxiety will take a while, but even just buying myself somethin as silly as cotton candy has literally made my week.

I have to keep reminding myself that fixing my mental health isn’t going to be a quick journey or an easy one. It’s hard, unraveling the brainwashing and every little jab.

But man am I so much happier, baseline.

I hope you all have a lovely day, I sure am ❤️‍🩹

Time to try and not eat this all in one sitting 😅