Thoughts (Patreon)

When someone shares things with me, I some times respond in advice mode, or by intellectualizing or distancing myself emotionally when really, if I was in a better headspace, I'd simply feel and respond from my emotions, to show care for others. The truth is, it's hard for me to be present or vulnerable, after having endured so much pain in my life, of being abused, hated for who I am, never feeling safe in public, losing so many people for being trans and a MAP, I never know when I'm safe again. I am constantly on guard. The truth is I am not safe, not in this world, and there is no drug or therapy that can change that, so I do what I can.

Thank you for showing me that some people can see my pain, don't want to demonize me, and think I have something to offer. <3