Mental Health / Update schedule impacts (Both AH/Infra) (Patreon)

TLDR at the bottom

Hey lads

I've been taking more breaks in recent months due to varied issues as informed in the related posts and notes. The week of vacation in December wasn't random but I really needed it.

For a few weeks now I've noticed that my resources just aren't quite where they used to be. I get stressed far more easily, have a harder time getting into the writing zone, had stomach aches, and issues with sleeping. When I could ignore negativity, or rationally consider criticisms, at the moment I react for more emotionally.

I'm looking into getting therapy to deal with everything but the fact remains that at the moment I feel a bit whacked, and there isn't a magic pill that will suddenly remove this issue.

A certain pressure is reasonable and the webnovel format has helped me write way more than I otherwise would've, but consistent symptoms of stress as mentioned above are not what I consider healthy nor is it sustainable.

As much as it annoys me, I think I might have to slow down a little. For a while maybe. I've always tried to treat this whole thing professionally (with some trolling) but close to my heart, which means I try to be honest with you all despite the vulnerability that creates. Hence also this post. So, following some of my considerations.

- I don't want to skip a full month because losing the income would stress me out, not writing at all would stress me out, and having no pressure at all would leave me drifting.

- I don't think reducing or setting a number of chapters per week makes sense either. I know you want chapters, and I want to write the stories. What I think makes sense is for me to be more aware of my mental health - which means when I'm stressed the fuck out, or forcing words while I'm not in a good state, I will simply stop. I'll try to do so starting January.

What does that mean for you?

- Expect skipped releases (possibly on short notice)

If you feel the price tag is not worth an uncertain amount of chapters, I suggest cancelling your subscription before the month's end. If you're bothered by the uncertainty, there's the option to cancel and check in after a few weeks or in February, to then read in bulk. Or simply read on RR where chapters continue to be released for free (delayed of course).

The main reason for this post is to inform you of my current state, and to allow for an informed decision in regards to your spending.

You want more story, I want more story. But word printing machine needs some care and maintenance. Wish it'd be as easy as diagnosing and fixing a broken clavicle, but I'm afraid it's not.

Let's hope the impact is minimal and I'll be back on track again soon. Will keep you in the loop at a reasonable rate. Thanks for reading, and thanks for your support through 800 chapters already :).

TLDR: Mental Res too low. Will stop writing if stressed - Updates might be skipped at uncertain rates.