Mice Tea is out! (Patreon)

I have my doubts that any you super generous people don't already know about this, but Mice Tea, a warm and wonderful visual novel made by some fantastic people in the Transformation Art Scene was released in its final 1.0 form yesterday!

Itch.io Store Link 

Steam Store Link 

Cinnamon Switch Patreon 

I cannot recommend this game enough. Even though I haven't had a chance to play it for a year or two, this is a game that's easily on my best games list. And that's because a couple of years ago, when I played this game the first time, it kinda...

broke me 😅

And I say that in the best way possible. Playing Mice Tea finally got me to accept that I was transgender because I loved it so much. And I say this with the fear of oversharing personal stuff, which is something I try to avoid on patreon because it's not what you amazing people are paying for. 

But if I may indulge myself and hopefully help other people on their path, the reason Mice Tea got me to accept being trans was because I have been a very sad person in my life. And much of that sadness came from the fact that I hated myself. And I hated myself because I kept lying to myself about not being trans. And then I kept lying to myself because I hated myself for lying and over the years that hatred just spilled over into the outside world. 

My self-hatred externalized as hatred towards all other things around me. Movies, games, music and so on. As I grew older I tried making myself less hateful, but it was an uphill climb because of years of doing it. So it was very hard to be positive about things. Especially new things. New things like a really fun and incredible visual novel about tea that turns you into a furry.

I went into playing Mice Tea with my life-long negativity towards all things, expecting myself to hate it because that's all I did. All I did was hate, hate, hate like AM in I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream.

But after like one hour of playing Mice Tea, I was lying on my living room floor crying harder than I had ever done because I loved Mice Tea.

And it was during that sob session that I hated myself more than I had ever done in my entire life. Because I realized that in that moment that for decades, I had been wrong about myself and the world. 

And then I admitted to myself, finally, that I was a trans woman. And I wanted to be as enthusiastic, optimistic and loving as Mice Tea and its creators were. But if I was going to start being the person I wanted to be, I needed to stop hating myself.

Since then, it's been around one and a half years and although the Swedish health care system for trans people is a joke and I've been prevented from starting any treatment for another three years, I do feel better than I ever have.

I might get the odd depression cycle once or twice a year, but I don't hate myself and I don't hate the world anymore. And I owe that to Mice Tea.

So a huge thank you to the Cinnamon Switch Team. I cannot thank you enough and I'm looking forward to what's next in their pipeline ❤️ 

- Fjora