Update (Patreon)

I hope you’ve had a wonderful weekend.

I realize that you might be wondering why I’ve deactivated my accounts. The previous post didn’t reflect what was actually happening at the time, so tonight I’ll try to explain things honestly and concisely.

I hadn’t been feeling good for awhile due to work, life, career shifts, family, [another] recent death, schooling - just a mixed bag of factors. I was trying to fake it till I made it, but I was exceedingly low on morale and willpower. Things peaked last week though after I’d invited other POCs to reach out to me if they needed a safe space following recent events on Twitter. Thought it was only three users, and there was no exchange, these folks sent me a wall of disturbing, racially-charged text, a dox threat and a pic of my sona they’d shopped onto the late George Floyd. And that was enough for me.

I wasn’t concerned about keeping the accounts open since people repost art all the time, but with Patreon I felt I had an obligation to give Patrons time to archive what they wanted lest it got deleted, too. I was rushing to leave regardless, and while I was already worn out and and going through a lot, last week’s events made me feel alone and no longer welcome. Why I didn’t tell anyone was because I didn’t want to start trouble, and I didn’t think anyone would notice if I slipped away. So the post I rushed to make last week(?) was meant to further aid in not raising any suspicion that things had gone wrong. I just wanted to leave quietly and not start anything.

I hope this is a succinct explanation. Even though the last post was a ruse, I still don’t know if I’ll “return” or move on since...I don’t know. I honestly don’t. Anyway enough about me - it’s not like there aren’t many talented people in the fandom to get your fix from. I still invite you to consider supporting folks like Ribbontini, Relaxable, Gory and more - there are many great artists out there that could use your support 💜. I’m honestly baffled as to why I have more patrons now, not less. If you subscribed so you could read the previous post, just let me know and I’ll give you a full refund.

Hope you have a good evening. I’m on Discord sparingly should you need me. I’m sorry I don’t have any new art for you - I haven’t finished training Simone on how to draw yet.

- Qalcove