Open Apology. (Patreon)
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Just let me start with an apology to anyone I might have offended or wronged.
I started going to the psychiatrist because of my bipolar disorder, which is quite severe.
For anyone that does not know I used to go by JohnDoe1970, and I have a good story of deleting my works, thousand of hours in renders and animations mind you, I've made over 2000 animations, each lasting 9 seconds and each taking at least 1 hour to render completly excluding fuck-ups and post-proccessing, some with a greater length, every single one of then was deleted from my harddrive because of my medical conditions.
I can't control myself sometimes and not getting the financial support I wanted did really hurt me not just financially but emotionally as well
I can't get a 'real job' because of my conditions, anxiety, depression, biolar disorder and excessive honestity and all that yadda yadda that a legit 90's kid carries.
I don't have a grudge with anyone that ever supported me, ever, I didn't reply to messages because when I feel under pressure I get very stressed and can't think straight, I never deleted my works as 'I gonna show you!' movement, every single work I deleted made me even more depressed and made me lose even more money, thus creating a feedback loop of depression.
So if you truly like my work I would appreciate a donation, it is the only thing in truth that keeps me motivated.
And as way of showing I'm in fact changing myself I want people to engage with me on the comment section, this include things like likes, it may or not mean anything to most, but giving an artist's work a like does show that you care about it even if you already supporting him financially.
Also plese feel free to leave your requests in the comment section of any of my works, I'm trying my best to restart things but it will be only possible with YOUR help, I can not do this alone.
I will analyze things, see what I should or not include on my works, I'm willing to do anything within Patreon rules, including but not limited to Scat, Fart, BDSM, Dickgirls, Male on Dickgirl, etc...
I know this is tiring, but understand that I'm like most artists, I'm trying to make a living out of art, If i don't get the financial support I'm looking for then I don't see any point in posting, this is the harsh truth about art and artists, most of us enjoy making art, but most end giving up because their expectations aren't meet and not because they lose their love for art, in fact most just end looking back and thinking to themselves 'I wish it did work out'.
And also to prove I'm being honest this post will be pinned, this way you can understand a bit more about me and my past actions, thank you for reading.