A Letter on 2019 (Patreon)

About a year ago mid-December I was quite depressed and thoughtful, I'd spent the year uploading to YouTube and trying to see if it worked out, only to get more and more troubles my way, I was even capped at 850 subs, so I was strongly thinking about quitting and trying something else with life
I wanted to fix myself in some way, cause I'm unqualified for a lot of normal jobs, and I still am reluctant to try any type of normal job, from an adult stand point, that's ridiculous right? You need to do what you can to survive, you can't just bitch out if the only available jobs are mediocre.

But I felt like I owed people at least one last gift, and worked on The Modded Experience, where I spent the full month not talking to anyone, not playing with friends, avoiding everyone and focusing on making sure that video was perfect, and released it as soon as it was finished, at new year

Turns out that the video blew up, and I went from 800 subs after years to 10k in a month. The deal was set, that was the window I needed, that I worked for

So I focused on YouTube through 2019, I slipped here and there, I had a lot of troubles, a lot of mistakes, a lot of stressing, but doesn't change how this made me achieve the impossible, cause ever since then I've been working on myself and I've been supported financially, which was what I most desired and thought it was nothing but a nice dream

Going forward I hope that I can either keep up with Patreon supporting me, or at least fix myself enough to at least allow me to get a somewhat easy job to help with life...

But this is game-breaking, I can't believe that I managed to do the impossible, in many ways, I'm finally fixing my communication problems, starting with my mother, and she finally somewhat understands me, I've been more open to people online and to friends about me

I can't believe that I managed to go as far as being able to share my hand online, and I only had a serious anxiety attack from it! Obviously that sounds bad but what I'm emphasizing is that I'm finally doing progress towards my traumas and fears, and being more open with the people that support me

Thank you for giving me not only a wonderful year but a year where you helped me break what even I thought was impossible.

One line comes to mind... "Believe in me who believes in you"

As a thank you, I'm changing some Patreon Rewards to be "Eternal", think of it as a 1 time-gift
For instance: the Minecraft Server is now an Eternal Reward, what this means is that even if you can't support me through $5 a month consistently, as long as you paid once or twice, you'll stay whitelisted, you're still allowed to join and play!

Some rewards were already eternal, like the Terminal Entries, but now this is official, and whenever a reward is eternal, it'll be stated as such in the rewards listed.

I've been thinking of doing something for people who scaled to above $100 over time, as it only seems fair for them to get something everlasting, this also would apply even to people who have supported me in the past but are no longer around

And I'm also updating Goals to have smaller goals for 2020, like making channel merch

Thank you for believing in me, I won't let you down, merry christmas and happy new year!