Im going to post this here so everyone sees it. (Patreon)

Lyssa just posted this last night on my community board and I know people miss the posts over there but I want to post this here because it greatly effected me. Maybe some of you are better with words than I am to make this hurt less or even understand it.

Lyssa wrote"

I'm Heartbroken

My husband died today. He was only 52. I can’t settle. Or sleep. We’d listen to Deadbug at night before bed. I loved him so much. So much. I have no words. Only a deep seated grief that will never go away. The love of my life died today. My Husband Nick died. And I’m angry. I’m shocked. There’s a hole inside me - a void so deep it will never be filled. He was my EVERYTHING and he will always be my everything. He was the kindest man ever. It’s the little things that are going to kill me. How he called me EVERY SINGLE DAY on his way home from work. To say he loved me. To see if I wanted STARBUCKS. How he cooked me breakfast every Sunday. How he held my hand in the car when he drove and kissed my fingers. How after almost 30 years together I still got that “tingle” when he pulled into the driveway. How I loved him more and more every year, every day, every second. I’m a widow. At 48. And it’s so fucking unfair. It should have been ME because the world needs more people like Nick. My Pickles. My darling. Oh Nick. You saved me. You LOVED ME. my god you Loved me. You said it EVERY SINGLE DAY. every day. And I love you. Your energy is still out there somewhere. Energy doesn’t die. Maybe now you are traveling the cosmos like you wanted to - free from the confines of spaceships. I’m going to look up at the stars and look for you. Because 27 years was not enough. I want you for infinity. And I know we will find each other again. We will dance on the stars and race fast cars. I loved you then. I love you now. Thank you for loving me and caring for me. Always. My Pickles. The best man there ever was. I guarantee there are very very few of you who have or had as good a man. He was just too good for this world. I see you in the stars. I feel you in the wind. Always in my heart. Forever. Rest now my love. I will keep looking for you. Every day. In every little thing. Because before you there was nothing and after you here on earth there is nothing for me. We will meet again. Because a love like ours endures. Forever. Infinity. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️