Absent (Patreon)

Burn out, exhaustion, emptiness, anxiety, The Big Sad... We get those days.

I get 'em too! It's really tough some days to find the motivation and energy to interact with the people I care about. I feel guilty and sad being an absent friend. It makes me feel I'm leaving myself out when I see the fun conversations and games they get into and I stress myself out by thinking of all the work I have to get done. 

And eve though I can't be around as often as I used to be... they still treat me with love and respect and act as if I was never gone. And it really is comforting to know they understand how busy I can get. I've been with these friends for many years, and I'm scared of losing them. So I really do my best to not be so absent. Same for the other people that show their support and interest in me. I just hope that the new people will come to understand as well. 

After years of being kind of a nobody and just doin' my own thing, the sudden burst of attention these last few years has been stressful and overwhelming. I'm still getting used to it and hopefully one day I'll be able to handle this sort of avalanche of messages ahaaaaaa.

I still appreciate the vast amount of nice messages and comments everyone leaves. I always read them when I have free time, and even if I don't always respond (mostly because I have the memory span of a durian), they always make me happy and push me to go on ^^