『大苦戦のTwitterデビュー』Twitter Struggles in Debut (Pixiv Fanbox)

みなさんこんにちはっ☀️

今日は朝いちばんに病院に行ってきたのでガラガラでした！🏥✨

ところでみなさん、こちらの動画をご覧ください。

そう、先日公開したこの動画。

たくさんエナジードリンクの空き缶が転がってますよね。

これ、実はエナジードリンクじゃありません。

実はこれ、お酒です。

お酒の見た目をエナジードリンクにすり替えてあるんです。

私はカフェイン過敏症で呼吸が苦しくなるので、エナジードリンクは飲めません。

今日は寝坊して水分補給を忘れたので仕方なく自動販売機で飲み物を買うことにして、

試しにカフェラテを購入してみたのですが、鼻づまりと口の乾き、喉のイガイガが同時に襲ってきて後悔しています。

おそらく今日一日中ずっとこのままです。つらい😨

なぜお酒の見た目をエナジードリンクにしてあるのかというと、イメージの問題です笑

この体、見た目が幼いのでビールとかお酒はイメージと違うかなぁと思い、私の動画ではお酒の見た目をエナジードリンクに変換してあります。

というわけで今後私の動画にエナジードリンクが出てきたら、それはお酒だと思ってください笑

ちなみに、今回は実家からビール券なるものをもらったので、やたら冷蔵庫にビールが入っております🍺🍺🍺🍺

私、お酒は全然飲まないので久しぶりに飲みました。

ポヤポヤして気分が良くなるので、なるほどな〜と思いました🫠

みなさんはアルコールはほどほどにね🍺

さて！今日は昨日ツイートした通り、Twitterデビュー当時のメモ（３日間分）が見つかったので、公開しつつ当時を振り返ろうと思います！

日記というより、活動記録としてメモしておいたっぽいので、文章も客観的というか、何か淡々としています笑

wwww

これは、多分ちょっと後になってから、思い出して書いてるみたいですね。

このツイートが表示されない問題（ツイートがサーチBANされる）にはずっと苦しめられてきました。

この問題についてはこちらの記事に詳しく書いてありますのでよかったらご覧くださいね！

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そう、まずはOP映像を披露したのかな？あまり覚えてないし削除したのかもしれない。

これは、気になって後からりんちゃんに調べてもらったんだけど、『りんりんね』で検索してもアカウントすら出てこないし、ツイートを見つけることもできなくてすごく悲しんだ思い出。

『こんなの、どうやって人に見てもらえばいいの？？』って思ってました。

初のフォロワーさんが現れて感激しアカウントを覗いてみるも、男の人だしなんとなく雰囲気が怖い（完全に私の思い込みですごめんなさい💦）ので、話しかけることができませんでした。

そもそもTwitterに慣れてなくて誰に話しかけるのも怖かったけど💦

ネット上で人と話すこと自体経験がなかったので😵‍💫

なんか誤字しまくって初ツイートを削除したり色々やってました。

緊張して、毎回Twitter使うときは汗でびっしょり😨

（返信はなかった）←笑

３日目のメモの日付が現在の日付になっていますが、間違えて編集しちゃったので日付が更新されちゃいました。

普通のツイートは検索に載るんですけど、気合を入れた画像や動画が全部サーチBANされてて無意味だったことを知り、大ショックを受けました😨

今思えば、よくこんな状態から認知してもらってフォロワーが増えますよね…。

みんな一生懸命発信して、新人同士で助け合ってコツコツ伸ばしてるんですよね。

有名事務所や企業からのデビューは初めから高い認知度と人気があるのでとても羨ましいです🥺

けど、個人でやってる人はその分みんな努力して試行錯誤するから、きっと全部自分のためになるだろうし、今は有名な絵師さんだってみんな個人でゼロの状態からコツコツ頑張ってきたんだろうな…。

そう思うと、個人で頑張ってる人はみんな尊敬です🫡

超有名な人のデビュー当時とか見てみたいですよね！こんな有名人でも最初はこうだったんだ！と思うと勇気が湧いてきて頑張れそう🔥

りんちゃんのコメントがリアル〜笑

私がどれだけ落ち込んでいたかがわかりますね😰

『自信があった』っていうのは、他に私と同じことをしている人がいないので珍しがって見てもらえると思っていたんですね。

でも『何事も思い通りになんていかない』と常に自分に言い聞かせているので、だいたい次の日には立ち直ることができます💪🏻✨

最初は、ダメなら一年くらいでやめようって思ってましたからね笑

続けられたのは応援してくださるみなさんのおかげです🥹✨

ちなみにその後、とあるイラストにタグをつけて投稿したことによってそれが拡散され、フォロワーさんが増えたことできっかけが生まれました。

ちなみにそのイラストはもう削除しています。

私、自分の絵が嫌いなんです。1週間くらいすると色々気になってきて、見るのが嫌になってきちゃう。

私はこれを『絵の賞味期限切れ』と思ってます。私の場合は大体1週間くらい。なまものですしね笑

実は小さい頃から絵ばっかり描いて育ったんです。

でも今は逆に絵を描かなくなってしまいました。

描く気力が湧いてこないんです。色々と挫折もあって。

それで、『あ、私ってもう純粋に絵を描きたいわけじゃないんだな』って思ってしまいました。

でも最近、描いてみようかなって思う時があります。活動の一環として描いてみようかなって。そうしたら楽しく描けるかな〜って。

いや、やっぱりそれでも描けない気がするな…

でももし描いた時はいいねとRTをよろしくお願いしますね笑

というわけで今回はデビュー当時のメモをご紹介しました！

今回も月末にFANBOX更新ごめんなさい💦

今から間に合えばギャラリーで新規写真も更新しますね💦

それではみなさん、また来月も頑張って活動しますね〜！！

バイバ〜イ🙋‍♀️

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Hello everyone!

I went to the hospital first thing in the morning today, so I was rattled! 🏥✨

By the way, everyone, please watch this video.

Yes, this video we released the other day.

There are a lot of empty energy drink cans lying around.

These are not energy drinks.

They are actually alcoholic beverages.

The appearance of alcohol has been replaced with energy drinks.

I can't drink energy drinks because I have a caffeine sensitivity that makes breathing difficult.

Today I overslept and forgot to hydrate, so I had no choice but to buy a drink from the vending machine.

I bought a café latte to try, but I regret it as I got a stuffy nose, dry mouth, and irritated throat at the same time.

It will probably stay like this for the rest of the day. It's painful😨.

As for why the alcohol looks like an energy drink, it's an image problem lol.

My body and appearance are so young that I thought beer and alcohol might not fit my image, so I have converted the appearance of alcohol to energy drinks in my videos.

So, if you see energy drinks in my videos in the future, please assume they are alcohol.

By the way, this time I got a beer coupon from my parents' house, so I have a lot of beer in my fridge. 🍺🍺🍺🍺

I don't drink alcohol at all, so I haven't had a drink in a while.

I see, it makes you feel better 🫠.

You all should drink alcohol in moderation 🍺.

Well! Today, as I tweeted yesterday, I found my notes (for 3 days) from when I debuted on Twitter, so I'd like to look back on those days while making them public!

It looks like I wrote it down as a record of my activities rather than a diary, so the sentences are objective or something.

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Day 1

I post the video but no one finds it.

Because the video was search-banned by Twitter.

Not knowing that, I was depressed because I thought that my video was not seen by anyone.

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LOL!

This looks like I'm writing this, maybe a little later, and remembering.

I have been suffering from this problem of tweets not showing up (tweets being search-banned) for a long time.

I've written more about this issue in this post if you'd like to read it!

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Yes, did we show the OP video first? I don't remember much and may have deleted the tweet right away.

I was curious about this and asked Rin-chan to look it up later, but I remember being very sad because I couldn't even find the account or find the tweets when I searched for "RinRinne".

'How am I supposed to get people to see me in this state?' I thought.

---Translation---

Day 2

Kamioka Keiro followed me, but I was too scared to talk to him

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This was my first follower and I was so excited to see him that I looked into his account, but I couldn't talk to him because he was a guy and the atmosphere was kind of scary (totally my assumption, sorry 💦).

I was not used to Twitter to begin with and was afraid to talk to anyone 💦

I had no experience talking to people online 😵💫

I was doing a lot of things, like deleting my first tweet because I kept making typos.

I was so nervous that every time I used Twitter I was drenched in sweat😨

---Translation---

I notice that I am not listed in the search, but I am at my wits' end

I'll tweet goodnight for now, and have a pretty picture ready for tomorrow's good morning tweet, hoping to get a mention!

Day 2

But no one saw it.

For some reason, I notice that I am banned when I post images and videos.

I am shocked to find out that my tweets so far are meaningless, as I had been working so hard on them.

I was so shocked that I deleted all my image tweets.

I contact Twitter management. (There was no reply.)

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(There was no reply) ←LOL

The date of the note on day 3 is the current date, but I edited it by mistake and the date has been updated.

Normal tweets are listed in the search, but I was devastated to find out that all the images and videos I put a lot of effort into were search-banned and meaningless 😨

Looking back on it now, I wonder how people can gain recognition and followers from such a situation....

Everyone is trying their best to send out messages, and newcomers are helping each other to steadily grow.

I envy those who debut with a famous agency or company because they are highly recognized and popular right from the start 🥺

But I am sure that everyone who works as an individual makes that much effort and goes through trial and error, so it will all be for their own good, and I am sure that even the famous painters today have all worked hard from scratch as individuals....

When I think about it, I respect everyone who works hard as an individual 🫡

I'd love to see what it was like when these very famous people first started out! Even these famous people started out like this! I think it would give me courage to work harder🔥

---Translation---

I was happy when I followed someone who liked me and they followed me back.

This made me happy, so I replied back for a while.

The trigger was Haku Yugen, who was also a new Vtuber, and I followed her because she was cute.

Everyone else was nice, too.

I wasn't sure if posting images would work properly without getting banned, so I took a selfie to try it out.

I was a little confident.

But still no response at all.

Someone named sasapan retweeted it, but no response from there.

I lost confidence and became apathetic.

I started thinking about drawing illustrations of famous VTubers and posting them.

However, I had a blank on drawing pictures and had no confidence.

Rin said, 'Let's just work on it now! but I couldn't do anything else that day.

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Rin's comment is so raw - lol!

You can see how depressed I was 😰

I guess I thought that 'I was confident' because no one else was doing what I was doing, so they would see it as a rarity.

But I always tell myself that 'nothing is as it seems' and I can usually get back on my feet the next day 💪🏻✨

At first, I thought if it didn't work out, I would quit after a year or so lol.

It's thanks to all of you who support me that I was able to keep going 🥹✨

By the way, after that, I posted a certain illustration with a tag on it, which spread and got more followers, which gave me a chance.

By the way, I have already deleted that illustration.

I don't like my drawings; after a week or so I start to notice things and I hate looking at them.

I consider this as 'expiration date of the picture'. In my case, it's usually about a week. And they are still fresh.

Actually, I grew up drawing pictures all the time since I was a child.

But now, on the contrary, I don't draw anymore.

I don't have the energy to paint anymore. I had a lot of setbacks.

So I thought, 'Oh, I don't genuinely want to paint anymore.

But recently, I have been thinking about trying to paint. I think I might try painting as a part of my activities. I wonder if I would enjoy drawing if I did that.

No, I still don't think I could do it...

But if you do, please give me a like and a RT, lol.

So, this time, I introduced my notes from the time of my debut!

Sorry again for updating Fanbox at the end of the month💦

I'll update new photos in the gallery if I can get to it now💦

Well then, everyone, I'll be working hard again next month~!

Bye bye~~.