I am fucking dying[channel update] (Pixiv Fanbox)

Short answer

No I am not actually dying(yet). I just need a break. I worked nonstop since August. I haven't stop don't worry. I just need time to rest

Long answer

I will address some things I am currently facing. I was planning to make this post only for the fans, so it is more possible for people to care I guess. But then I thought that everyone needs to know what it's happening before they would pay for any subscription

After many nights of alcohol and many many many attempts of making something new. I think it's time to do this. I need a break. For those that have been here from the start. You know I have been working non stop from August. The reason I need a break however is not that I am tired.

I am so fucking broken right now, mentally. I try to go back to my work but I can't. I haven't felt this kind of pain for years.. I am watching at the animations I made, the characters etc and... I just .. feel so depressed so sad. Every story I made, or any other hentai artist I am watching, it 's just makes me depressed.

After all the comments and the private messages you send me. I am really happy to give you something you like like. But seriously... I can't take this. At least, not now. I need a break. It may be one week, or one month. Of course I will give you updates (while deleting the old ones of course).

Now. for the subscription part. At least I was able to make the episode with "sauna with mom". I promise you, I will try my hardest to make something for the other tiers. But I can't guarantee anything of course.

I will get back I promise. And this promise is not for you but for me as well. I will not let this shit defeat me.