This Week At KosoruCG 2/16-2/22 (Pixiv Fanbox)

Okay here's the thing

I'm working on a new wallpape for wallpaper engine

I think it's time for me to update my wallpaper

it should be a 20 second animation

i want a cute loli so i chose kokkoro

then start remaking the character

because I did her a long time ago

then I wondered if I forgot something...?

and I just "fuck I forgot to the weekly report!!"

so I just took a picture for the cover of my weekly newspaper

but I haven't finished the scene yet

You'll be notified when I'm done

so let's start the content of the weekly report !

I disappeared for about three days last week to attend my grandfather's funeral

I hope you guy are not too boring

it was in a very rural place and i didn't wear my sunglasses i almost went blind i think

man...those blinding sunshine oh my god...

there I heard details about my grandfather's leave

about a month and a half ago he got COVID-19 so his in to the ICU

but everyone is busy and no one can take care of him

finally my father decided to quit his job

take care of my grandfather all the time

i think he is a hero...

I don't know how many people would be willing to make such a big decision

People care about those rents, his pension, his next meal.

there are so many things that keep people at his job

there's nothing wrong with that, life is hard

I heard from other people that he pulls two chairs together at night

sleeping next to my grandfather every night

and my father is 55 years old

he feeds him and bathes him every day

no one was hired to do this

my father accompanied my grandfather for a month and a half

one night after dinner

my dad helped him out of the shower

he watched my grandfather fall asleep then he left to get something to eat

when he came back, he found that my grandfather had left peacefully on the bed.

he showed me pictures of my grandfather when he died

looks like she's really asleep

no pain no regrets

ended his 88 years of life

my father had no regrets or pain

he is proud of him

thank him for everything he has done for this family

thank him for being an upright and honest man during these 88 years

he told me when my grandfather had just been admitted to the emergency room

he asked about me

am I still working as a chef?

is everything going well?

I was quite surprised when I heard this

because I didn't talk to my grandfather very often

we've spoken very seldom

I thought he didn't care much about me

but I found out later that it was only because

he never put the word love on his lips

he actually cares about all of us

when my mother visited him

as soon as my mother left he asked my father

is she wearing a coat ? the hospital is cold

because grandfather's eyes can't see

so he needs to ask my father

he cares about all of us

When I heard my grandfather walked his last journey with my father

I am happy for him

he didn't die alone in a nursing home

or leave under the care of servants

my father is really a hero

but he told me not to talk about it

because people will compare

but apparently I didn't do what he said LOL

Sometimes people don't need to be so sentimental about dying

people are always going to die

death is the end of all people

when i looked at my grandfather's picture at the funeral

I'm thinking:

"oh one day i'll be the one hanging on it...will anyone remember me?"

that...my friend...That's the only thing you need to care about in your life

many descendants and many neighbors came to grandfather's funeral

because he is nice to everyone

everyone remembers him as a great guy

that's good

No one is fighting for his house or his property

because he is not rich

I've seen brothers and sisters fighting over dead people's $300,000 or so

take each other to court

then it turned out that no one went to the funeral of the deceased

because these guys are busy going to court

Does human achievement really matter?

I don't think anyone was born for a purpose

or achieve something

So who defines success?

I think my grandmother and grandfather were very successful people

They are not rich they are farmers

but they are nice to all including animals

there are always good impressions when people think of this person

this is the life i want

so i'm so proud of my grandfather

he did it

be a good guy until the last moment

when my grandmother was dying of a stroke

I saw my grandfather kneeling beside her bed

hold her hand

Tell her firmly: "We will be husband and wife again in the next life"

he sounds so sure

so when i said goodbye to him at the funeral

I told him "well...you can go to grandma now and propose to her again"

that's all

I didn't feel sad and I am proud of him

so this is his story

about an 88-year-old farmer

an honest man

I may not live that long

because I stay up late and eat a bunch of junk food

but i think it's ok

as long as I have no regrets and be an upright person until the last moment

Oh that's what I did when I disappeared for three days

Then let's talk about what to do next. After all, this is a weekly report.

What we're doing now is the sequel to Dead end

I personally like this series too

Zombies are good they don't complain

and I'll mention a little bit what's in the future plans

all the works I mentioned will be completed by me

so you don't have to worry

I really do

Currently with me is Lili from Danmachi very close

I might use it to test some more...painful animations

because I think it's fun to bully Lili

then Miku Nakano's video is expected after this

but it can be earlier than Lili

I expected her to be brutally choked and raped in the toilet

that scene should be pretty exciting

followed by the video of Momo and Nana

the timeline should pick up after the Trouble series

I still like their sisters

after all, I used them for the cover

and they're my earliest characters

I would love to remake them now

that's probably all March...

but time flies too fast

Maybe you'll see them not long after you read this weekly

time flies so fast

I met my cousin at the funeral

he was 11 when i last saw him...totally a kid

and now i see him he's 18

I looked at him and thought

"Oh that's how I was not long ago!"

but later found "no I'm 25 years old"

seven years go by so fast...

so I guess a month should be pretty fast too

I will continue to update these progress

let everyone not be so boring

ok that's all

thank you for watching the weekly!