Updates (Pixiv Fanbox)

Hello my loving supporters and followers. First, I want to apologize for lack of updates over these last couple of months. This might get a bit depressing, so I'll start with broadest strokes. I inadvertently took an unscheduled hiatus and my shame at being unable to produce any content prevented me from showing my face and explaining things. The last couple of weeks, I've been finding my feet again and I got an update done to Raeza's model which should resolve quite a few issues from her previous version, and added a ton of new stuff to make her easier to work with: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/100702375

I hope that even if you are not a content creator, you will give her a try and have fun with her. :)

Now here comes the part where I try to explain myself a bit, and this "update" gets heavy. I had originally planned for maybe a small bit of downtime to catch my breath and try to work out a healthier relationship with content creation that could both foster a consistent output and leave me feeling inspired and motivated to keep creating content. And then my brother unexpectedly died. This hit my entire family like a brick and left me with a lot of soul searching to do. I'm have not entirely come to terms with this yet, but basic functionality is at least on the table now. The short of it is that a relapse ended with a fentynol overdose that took my brother's life. I cannot begin to explain the complexities the relationship between my brother and I, but this was never how I wanted it to end.

Honestly, I don't want people saying that they understand or trying to comfort me. I will recover and I still have some life in me. My brother was a good man with a tortured soul who battled demons I don't think I could even look at. My hope is that he has found peace and that his soul can finally rest. I had always thought we had more time, but sadly that isn't the case. It is my hope that when we meet in the afterlife, we can reminisce on the good times, and make gallows jokes about the darkest times.