『変わった』 (Pixiv Fanbox)

today I am a bit hurt and happy desu. can skip ne.

but If anyone wants to know more about me please take your time to read it desu.

it might be useful info in the long run desu.

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the record from the personality test said someone like me is the type of person who can see people's true potential desu.

and I have no doubt because I always know that I can do it desu.

but until now I have only had success in how to lit the fire inside them desu.

all I can help them is give them a push desu.

until lately I just realize that maybe I am just a dreamer or a scammer who is good at moving people's hearts desu.

because my lazy brother failed desu.

because all my friends also failed desu.

because all my sisters also failed desu.

no one ever succeeds to prove my ability to be real desu.

my lover used to say that [you are always talking about the beautiful side]

[you are always making an excuse to make yourself look good]

she has been honest with me to the point that she become the mirror of mine desu.

thanks to her comment that makes me understand myself more desu.

everyone sees her like a cheap girl desu. someone even sexual-harassment her like funny things, if that time she has shown any sign of unwanted to be sexual-harassment I would go jump to hurt those guys with the intention to kill right away desu.

I do not blind desu. I know what type of girl is dangerous desu.

but I come to know more and more about her until I see far into her future desu.

and the one I fall in love with is the one is in the future desu.

I also realize that I am the stupid one who thinks she ok with being called cheap girl desu.

no one love to be called cheap girl desu.

more than anything she is just some high school student desu.

and the reason that we are broke up is also that I made a big mistake everything about her desu.

I only see her from the picture desu. no more fancy makeup no more risky dress up and more than anything she found the guy that looks so reliable desu.

I never see her picture and almost forgot all about her desu.

but when I see it,

this is the face of the person that I fall in love with from the start desu.

that is why we never succeed at communicating desu.

because I fall in love with the person that lives inside her that has not yet been born until today desu.[I mean her future self, not her child ne]

this is the first time that I see her picture and see how she grew up so much desu.

she must be really happy and understand everything now desu.

I am sure she must understand about all my words at that time now desu.

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but that is just all about my normal life that already dies desu.

I already have no empty room for that kind of feeling anymore desu.

I mean I am already not blind enough to fight for Gender equality desu.

somehow I feel freer than I am with her desu.

my instinct never lies desu.

it always Hentai from the start desu.

all mistakes just are the lesson for making me realize it desu.

that I am not suited for the Happy ending with her desu.

because it will not explain the question of why I do not satisfied with the current Hentai culture why do I always study and focus on Hentai culture when I have Freetime when I lose everything and even when the time I want to stop but the only things that will always keep going on are my instinct toward Hentai culture desu.

the rage the hatred everything about it forced me to take this route desu.

I am a bit hurt but I am happier to know that she will forever be an important part of my story desu.

that's all it matters to me desu.

Too bad I already sky kick the person who sent me her picture instead of saying thank you to him desu.

but do not worry ne, from the record also mention something about when how people like me become when they give up on the happy ending route desu.

hai, we are going to create chaos and start the new Hentai era desu.

we will be recorded into the history of humanity as the bad guys desu.

at least we will be the group of people who have the best era of hentai world desu.