『今日は休みの日です』fixed 002 (Pixiv Fanbox)

about Maxi-san problems and support system desu.

I think I am good at finding my own motivation desu.

because I always fire up at the little things desu.

maybe because of my poor skill at emotion control desu.

people always can tell that

Maxi-san is angry, Maxi-san is sad just by look at my face desu.

when people in the groups want my opinion

all they need to do is looking at my face desu.

there once at the college that I try to make a poker face for negation desu.

but my lips are shaking and tears almost come out desu.

lying is not a good option for me desu.

but this is not fair for me desu.

at the same time, I spend too much time reading people desu.

to the point that I have a bad habit of judge people by one simple system desu.

who, what, why desu.

this makes up for what I do not have

and helps me able to get along with people in real life desu.

because my true standard is no good for anyone but myself desu.

but that is also because I am too weak and coward

to show my true color to everyone desu.

because I am afraid to living alone without support desu.

until now that still not change desu.

but again desu. this RPG project is also part of my true color desu.

what I want, what I hate, the happiness the despair all inside this RPG project desu.

this explain why I am picky about the follower,

and people who are going to be my supporter desu.

why I need this system desu.

I think you guys might start to already figure out why this guy try to pick a fight with everyone desu.

from the start,

I do not do this because I want to be loved by anyone desu.

and I do not plan to be hated by anyone too desu.

but hated by people is a bit hurt and have more problems than I thought desu.

this is why this is a bit out of plan desu.

because to me there is nothing worth fighting for more than this crazy project desu.

this is the price that I and supporter have to pay desu.

I would run away after know there are some haters or people try to stop me desu.

I can not do that now because what I doing now already is become someone else hope too desu.

even RPG project is a low success rate,

but there is little chance that the RPG project might be able to succeed desu.

and I bet all my life with this low success rate desu.

in short, this is the type of person and the type of support plan that you guys pay for desu.

the bet for the better hentai world desu.

people who try to stop us,

the problems that try to stop us will keep coming desu.

and I will be mad sometimes and end up hurt a lot of people feeling desu.

losing a supporter who shared the same destination with me is a bit too much for me desu.

but my agenda will never change desu.

If I got a chance to create this wave by using the RPG project,

I will pay with my life and serve the hentai world to the rest of my life desu.

this is something that I need to do so I no longer have anything to regret desu.

the reason I talk about this is not that I have low support,

I would feel bad when crying over some little problems like this

and got some huge support for it later desu.

I just want to be positive and keep on going,

not just stop or crying over this little prize we need to pay for it desu.

we can keep fighting this slowly together desu.

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current work 60% desu.

will keep update news at the comment below ne.