新しい看板です fixed ver 001 (Pixiv Fanbox)

I do not mind embarrassing myself with poor knowledge of languages or anything desu.
but I have been jealous of another artist that does not have to try hard and they got knowledge got the environment to get better that why yesterday I am at the limit desu.
If I am able to stay at the college for 1 more years then I might have a better knowledge of language desu. but my environment gives me no chance of doing that.
that why I will try to find another way around desu.
credit, reputation, will have bad results later desu.
that why I thought that I can not just go showing the poor side around on Pixiv desu.
but I will be able to do all of this at Fanbox desu.
yesterday I just end up thinking about it again and again and can not get into the mood to draw anything desu.
nothing, for the first time in my life, that I have a paper but have nothing to put on them desu.
I thought I already have enough hatred but that can not be compared to yesterday's feeling desu.
[the forbidden fruit] is the technique that helps me to get into the mood to find what can be exciting for me and encourage me to drawing desu.
without this technique, I would never be able to make any proper work like this desu.
I jealous those people who have a good environment
and they do not have to face any hatred from this good environment
thinking about this makes me shaking with rage and despair desu.
but do now worry desu.
thanks to your guys support me here.
I will not give up or running away like I always do in the past desu.
The only problem is
how to make a mistake and do not have to worry about reputation.
the answer is [working inside Fanbox] desu.
I believe that I have gathered a lot of people who already believe in me here.
that why even I make a mistake or show how foolish I am here
I will be sure that you guys know that I will surely make it up for it later desu.
in short
sorry for the trouble so far desu.
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P.S.
this week will have no progress to show due to Nemu-san work and these problems desu.