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銀ちゃんφ(*ﾟωﾟ´*)

今日は体調が悪くてはずっと寝ていました。

そしたら10数年ぶりに金縛りにあいました…！

声も出せず体も動かせず「あーあー」としか言えないのです。

しかも誰にも気づいてもらえない。

そして目覚めたと思ったらまだ夢の中…。

これを何度も何度も繰り返してしてようやく本当に目覚めたけどものすごく怖かった。

今思い返せば昔の金縛りと同じパターン！

調べると夢の中での金縛りは不安や焦りの象徴で

繰り返し金縛りにあう夢はストレスが限界に達していて潜在意識が悲鳴を上げているメッセージなんだそうな。気づいてもらえないのは寂しさや、自信の喪失の表れ。

確かに寝る前にかなりイライラする事があったのでそのせいかもしれません。

寝るのが怖くなったけど、次は金縛りになりませんでした。

自分でも気づかないうちにストレスを溜め込んでいたのかなぁ。

モチベーションを捻り出すために自分にストレスを与えたりする事もあるけど

度を越えていたのかもしれないですね💦

絵のストックが減るとどうしても、描かなきゃ！って思ってしまう。

義務で描いているわけじゃない事を肝に銘じないといけないな。

初心ってすぐ忘れちゃうんだよね～ (*ﾉ∀`*)

Gin-chanφ(*ﾟωﾟ´*)

I was sick today and slept all day.

Then, for the first time in more than a decade, I was in a gold mine...!

I can't speak, I can't move my body, and all I can say is "ahhhhh".

And no one notices me.

And then I woke up, but I was still in a dream.

After repeating this over and over again, I finally woke up, but I was scared to death.

Looking back on it now, it's the same pattern as the old gold bondage!

If you look into it, you'll find that gold bondage in dreams is a symbol of anxiety and impatience.

I've heard that recurring dreams of being repeatedly tied to money are a message that your stress has reached its limit and your subconscious is screaming. Not being noticed is a sign of loneliness and a loss of confidence.

I did get pretty irritable before I went to bed, so maybe that's why.

I dreaded going to bed, but the next time I went to bed, I didn't get a gold mine.

I guess I was getting stressed out without realizing it.

Sometimes I'd stress myself out to twist my motivation.

Maybe I was overstepping my bounds 💦.

When the stock of paintings dwindles, I can't help it, I have to paint! I think.

I have to keep in mind that I'm not painting out of obligation.

Holy shit, I forget my initial thoughts so easily! (*ﾉ∀`*)