チラ裏　依存症雑記eng♯1534 (Pixiv Fanbox)

https://www.mhlw.go.jp/izonshou/izonsho_manga_v01.html

ツイッターで依存症啓発漫画が話題になってたので読んでみました！

素晴らしい作品なので依存症経験の無い人でもためになると思います🐯✨

今回は主に私の過去の話なので興味のない人はスルー推奨。

I read this addiction awareness comic on Twitter because it was talked about on Twitter.

It's a great piece of work and I think it's beneficial even for people who have no experience with addiction 🐯✨

This time it's mainly my past, so if you're not interested, I recommend you go through it.

fanbox post: creator/24386/post/545101

こちらでも少し書きましたが。

私にも他人事ではなく、13歳の頃ネットゲーム依存症になって

４年間自身も家族もめちゃくちゃにしてしまった過去があります。

親は家族会に通っていましたが、私は最後まで一度も行くことが出来ませんでした。

抜け出せたのは、最後まで私を見捨てなかった母と、自分自身を変えたいと思い続けることが出来たからでしょうか。

作中でも描かれていますが、依存してしまった理由は心の穴、寂しさだったと思います。

私は中１の頃不登校になってしまい、それまで打ち込んでいた水泳やテニスも辞めてしまい自分には何もない、得意なものも誇れるものも何もない無価値な人間だと思うようになってしまいました。そんな自分でもゲーム内であれば必要とされるそれが嬉しかった。

一日１２～１６時間ずっとネトゲをしてましたね～。

はしょるけど色々あって辞めることができ、もう二度とネトゲはしないと誓ったのに

二十歳の頃にモンハンFに手を出したらまた辞められなくなってしまってアルバイト等にも支障が出てしまいました、でも過去の経験を思い出し２週間でばっさり辞めることができました。私がゲームに手を出すのに慎重なのは過去の経験からです。

今は心の穴を絵や創作活動埋めてくれてるので依存症になることはありません。

人は自分のアイデンティティを見失うと自己肯定感が下がり依存症になってしまうリスクが高まります。誰に何を言われても自分の好きな趣味を見つけることが出来ればそれだけで人生は楽しくなります。絵を本気で頑張ると決めた15歳の私、ありがとな✨

I've written a bit about it here.

I'm no stranger to this, I had an internet gaming addiction when I was 13 years old.

I have a history of messing up myself and my family for four years.

My parents went to family reunions, but I never got to go to one until the end.

I guess I was able to get out of it because of my mother, who never gave up on me until the end, and my continued desire to change myself.

As depicted in the work, I think the reason I became dependent on them was the hole in my heart, the loneliness.

I stopped going to school when I was in the first grade, and I quit swimming and tennis, which I had been devoting myself to, and I began to think of myself as a worthless person who had nothing to offer, nothing to be good at and nothing to be proud of. I was glad that even though I was like that, I was needed in the game.

I was playing nettles for 12-16 hours a day all the time!

A lot of things happened and I was able to quit, and I swore I'd never play nettles again.

When I got into Monhan F when I was 20 years old, I couldn't quit again and it interfered with my part-time job etc., but I remembered my past experiences and was able to quit easily within 2 weeks. I'm cautious about getting into games because of my past experiences.

Now I don't have an addiction because it fills a hole in my heart with drawings and creative activities.

When people lose sight of their identity, their self-esteem drops and the risk of becoming an addict increases. If you can find a hobby that you love, no matter what anyone else says, that's all you need to do to make your life more enjoyable. I'm a 15 year old who decided to get serious about painting, thank you ✨.

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