スケッチ172模写　雑記eng♯1562 (Pixiv Fanbox)

🐯✨私は水浴びとか20年くらいしてないぜ！

ふと思い出したけど、私がやる気に溢れていた二十歳の頃

今の私くらいの年齢の絵描きに「そんなモチベーションでいられるのは若いから、歳取ればあなたもわかるようになる」と言われたことがありました。

それは間違っていなかった、会社を辞めて目的を見失った28歳の私は二十歳の頃の半分もモチベーションを保てていなかった仕事の空き時間はゲームばかりしていたし

創作をしない日だって多かった。そんな自分がすごく嫌で自己肯定感も低かった。

けど今は二十歳の頃に負けないようなモチベーションを1年半維持しています。

結局年齢よりも気持ちの問題でした。問題を感じているのなら自分の意思でモチベーションを取り戻すことは可能だと言うことです。

いつまで維持できるかわからないけど、過去の自分の恥じないような生き方をしたいとは常々思っています ٩( 'ω' )و

I haven't bathed in water or anything for 20 years!

I suddenly remember when I was 20 years old, when I was full of motivation.

I was once told by a painter about my age now that I was young enough to be motivated like that, and as I got older you would understand.

That wasn't wrong, I was 28 years old when I left the company and lost sight of my purpose, I wasn't half as motivated as I was when I was 20, and all I did in my free time at work was play games and

There were many days when I didn't even create. I hated myself so much for that and my self-esteem was low.

But now I've maintained the same motivation for a year and a half that I had when I was 20.

In the end, it was more about my feelings than my age. The thing is, if you're feeling the problem, it's possible to get your motivation back on your own terms.

I don't know how long I'll be able to maintain it, but I always want to live my life in a way that I'm not ashamed of my past ٩( 'ω' )و