I’ve been thinking about maybe going back to work full time (Pixiv Fanbox)

My brain just doesn't do art anymore. It breaks my heart and it makes me miserable but I've tried and tried but I just can't seem to do it anymore. It's like I forgot everything I know, nothing turns out right, my dialogue isn't good, i can't sit down and do it anymore. I've been trying my hardest to find ways to make it better, maybe I needed to see friends more or take another week off or clean my house but it's like my heart isnt there in the end.

my job was literally killing me but I don't know what other options I have. I'm really scared because this is the best thing I've done and the only thing that gives me meaning, and I don't want it gone for no reason. I'll be thinking things over but I appreciate every single one of you guys. Thank you so much for making my life worth living <3