Just some life updates and some preview ideas for next pics (Pixiv Fanbox)

So since doing this full time (Thank you so much!!)

I've been reevaluating my life choices (Or rather life choices I was forced into) and I realized everything I've done in life was very... efficient. I don't live well even when I have the opportunity. I never had a cell phone plan, never got a car, never traveled much.

So now that I'm here I want to take some moments to be a little silly. I spent a good amount of my life prepping for the next bad thing to happen to me but for the first time everything seems to be going great!

It's hard to shake that feeling of something bad happening when thats consistantly what happened.

It makes me happy to see so many of you have stuck with me through my bad times and my good ones because I have this ingrained fear i'm going to lose it all, and just seeing you back here month after month makes me happy that things` are finally changing in my life.

Thank you so much for giving me a home and a place where I can be consistantly happy. It's going to be a while before the panic subsides and the anxiety attacks dissipate but I'm working on it day by day.

Lol in a way it's kind of rough not having a 50-60 hour a week job anymore because that was kind of a regulator and an "excuse". Not to under perform but it was a trial to overcome. Now that I'm my own boss it's like... how much time do I have? Whats a good amount to draw? Because during work having 5-8 pics a month is considered good! Now I put out 8 pics and 3 of them are comics and I feel... unsure?

Haha but It takes time, we all have our groove and we find it with enough effort!

Anyways, all these life changes have given me a lust for life and things Ive never been able to do because the weight of everything kept me down and one thing is Travel abroad!

So I'm setting a goal for myself! If I can manage to set aside 4k USD I will travel to japan for 2 weeks in a year from now! It sounds doable but my track record says I will gain and lose it 10 times before then lol So we will see.

Traveling is something I always wanted to do but felt like a pipe dream, and Japan just seems so "nice". Im not the biggest anime fan and I never read a manga but Japan just has so many cool things in one place. Snowy Onsens, Mountains, Futuristic cities, Traditional cities, Home cooked food, cheap things, expensive things, its such a mixed bag~!

So a vacation is my next life goal!

I can learn languages really easily so right now im learning Hiragana and Katakanna on my days off and thats going well... Kanji is gonna suck though lol

I'm gonna see how much language I can learn before my trip if there is one!

Anyways, I know this is a fantasy and it probably wont happen but I want to hope and I want to try!!

Again thank you so much for making my life possible and giving me the opportunity to dream big like this, you have made my life better than I ever hoped for and I promise to keep drawing and doing my best to fulfill my end to you!

Drawing for you is so much fun and I love how you love my art and have all become my friends over the years. <3 Thank you from everything I am!

So, for pics. I still have the commission from last month to do via the raffle. Its been taking me a second because it's... a weird angle lol, but Ill do my best. I think Ill just hope for that and save my other stuff for next month but Ill still try and squeeze in something else <3 Maybe somehting low effort and naughty just for you.

As always I love hearing from you, Im so sorry I havnt been able to talk on a personal level with you guys. Ive been getting 700 DM's a month and Im trying to make every one of those personal but... yeah, the new mega password thing is going to free up a lot of that time spent because I love love love hearing from you.

Seeing messsages from you makes my day! So please dont let that deterr you. If you have anything you wanna say to me please dm me on here or discord (someotherchick) and I promise Ill read it <3

Good or bad, I love your praises and I love heard ways you were disapointed by the month so we can fix them this time.

I know this month was a lot less productive than last month, but thats because I was sick.. like.. so many days and I took a week off for mental reasons, but I'm going to be a lot better about that going forward as I find my work flow!

Love you guys! Hope you have a great rest of your month and thnak you so much for being here and seeing my art!