I'm sorry (Pixiv Fanbox)

Dear all supporters

I could not finish my original plan of making several small projects this month. I am deeply sorry for the delay

As a matter of fact, some may have noticed my update on Twitter earlier about my guts problem, and it turns out pretty bad and awfully dragging due to the Covid emergency alert in Japan these days. The disease was still unknown origin, but the doctors suggest that it may be caused firstly by an unhygienic diet, then leads to a near-bowel obstruction, companied with some inflammation with the liver and pancreas. It hurts badly in the intestines first, then constantly causing a weird stinging feeling around my stomach, near the gallbladder and lower intestines. I can even feel my stomach expanded heavily and can touch its shape from the outside of my belly. During these days, the major pain came on and on repeatedly 3 times thus wasted a lot of time to see the doctors. Then there are different meds and a strict diet control plan, one med made me thirsty and one made me very sleepy. I usually draw during the evening but now the dinner+med makes it too difficult, and eventually, I did only a little progress in the Witcher project's writing and little progress of some drawing.

This disease may be caused by a minor infection, but my stressful working state, late-night work hobby, lack of sports, and this already one-year-long homestay isolation turned it into a big alert to my current health status. I've never suffered illness from my bowl anytime before in my life, and I'm always proud of my immune system. To be honest, I was a little scared before the second visit to the doctor. I was pretty worried that the CT scan may find some tumor or illness that could be fatal, something so bad that could strike a healthy person like me down. But in the end, it seems it's all those bad habits in my life find their ways to pay me back, or perhaps some karma from the victims I disemboweled? lol

I already considered myself lucky for I could do my main job through the internet, even with people from another continent. But Covid also struck Japan's health care system pretty badly: people don't have direct access to big hospitals with CT or MRI, it has to be reserved for the suspect patients with fever and respiratory illness. We can only go to clinics first, get inspected by a local doctor, then get transferred to a big hospital by this doctor's recommendation. So it took me 3 weeks to have 3 blood tests, 2 X-rays, 2 Ultrasonic scans, 1 fucking horrible gastroscope, 1 humiliating poop inspect, and 1 CT to inspect the cause of the pancreas inflammation(thank god I have the insurance), each test result can only come in 1-2 days, then I need to visit the doctor again to listen to the analysis... Well, I can't blame the system now that I believe every medical worker is all stressed these days, but it is a hell of a slow process. But such slow processes gave me great confidence that I was not gonna die for they'll move much faster in that emergency lol.

Anyway, the final blood test result came out just today and it finally has some major columns like WBC, AST and ALT turning down. So a big relief.

This illness is obviously a warning to myself and many people who might have the same stress like me - jobs, isolation, lack of sport, sitting in front of computers for the whole day, and bad habits like eating before sleep and smoke too much. The doctor warned me that since I'm over 30 now, I can no longer consider myself invincible even with a good foundation. So here I wish that anyone who sees this post would review their life status now, to make sure that you don't stress yourself out, don't do too much damage to your body beyond repair, and do not use Covid as an excuse to stay in front of the screens for the whole day - you can definitely at least do some squat while watching the Youtube, can't you? For myself, this is exactly what I planned to do. I bought the Fitting Ring on the NS a couple of months ago, didn't enjoy it back then, but now I think I will force myself to train with it, for a better state to work, for a better tomorrow to live.

As for myself, I finished taking the sleepy medicine last Friday, but the schedule was already ruined. My stomach and sometimes intestines still hurt after each meal but doctors suggest it would be temporary. I didn't work for anything these days - my day job, or drawing for about 3 weeks but I feel strong enough to draw something tomorrow. So I will have at least one small set completed later this month.

Once again, I'm terribly sorry for all the support this month went in vain, I will try to make up by next month. I hereby wish everyone to keep their health in this difficult time, and thank you for your all-time support and love.

I will post all the new stuff I made this month by April 30th.

Thank you