Who I was in a past life... (Patreon)

     Alcoholism has been a major struggle for me. I sometimes cringe about the kind of person I was before while in active addiction. I had talked shit to people who didn’t drink alcohol while at my party house. I would make fun of them to their face and try to peer pressure them into drinking with us. 

     Looking back, I am disgusted by myself. I thought I was sooo cool too. 

     I *thought* I was a very social, loved person in my community... While a handful of people I lived with and some people who frequently visited I do consider friends to this day, about 90% of the visitors we had and a few of my old roommates disappeared from my life over time after I had to quit drinking. 

     I have a blog post up now that includes photos of me during this time of my life, but I cant share them on OF because the other people in the photos are not "verified OF creators" of course... my blog is at www.kristyjessica.com/about if you wanna see!

     Anyway... I have experienced more closeness with my connections online when I have opened up about my struggles with alcohol. Have you struggled with it drinking? I hope my engagement with you here provides some joy to your life <3