Story of my first shoot... (Photo by Masha) (Patreon)

     “Why don’t you come over and we will see if you make the cut?” The photographer stated, after hearing me express my insecurities. I was so nervous because I knew that models had to be at least 5’9 with perfect skin… I already had stretch marks and I am only 5’2… certainly I would be turned away at the front door… Despite everything in my fiber telling me I wasn’t good enough, I still drove myself there to do my first photo shoot ever. We agreed over the phone to shoot lingerie and swimwear, because I told him I was not ready or confident enough for nudity. 

     “You see these fancy lights? This is how I will make you look hott!” …but I am hott… that’s why I am here… right? “Look at this on the camera, that’s called a hiss-tuh-gram” he enunciated slowly, as if I didn’t understand anything in the world… “This will help make you look good in the photos!” The pit of my stomach sank. He already knew I was insecure about my height and stretch marks. “Go brush your hair again, we are about to start.” 

     “Now slowly start turning in a circle while taking off your top” he instructed, as if it was a casual process of all photo shoots ever… “But….” I stammered, confused by his conflicting instructions, “you said we were just doing a lingerie shoot? Not nudity right?” 

     “Listen here, missy, these photos have to be COMPETITIVE with everything on the internet!” His toxic tone turned me into a deer in the headlights. “If you don’t get naked, you are just wasting my time here!” 

To be continued in tomorrow's post...

*Kristy

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Disclaimer - the photo in this post is not related to the story ;)