The Silenced Piano - by Vongsawat (Patreon)

I've held back on sharing this set for a while, I have been waiting for a mood to strike for me to be able to write up emotions that align with these feelings. 

Exuberance is exhausting. We light fires within ourselves we sometimes cannot contain, and feel the burn while attempting to dowse with a tidal wave of new activities. Trying to sing beautifully from my own vocal chords while striving to emulate the eminence of those who blazed trails ahead of me. 

The silenced piano; yes, it reverberates sound waves when I press its keys... but it's not a tailored tune. I know it well enough to annoy those in earshot with incongruent notes and clamors. No one wants to hear that, so I refrain from pressing said keys. 

When I was 3, I was in the same ballet class with my bestie, she is now a professional Ballerina in Germany. I was distracted with the foam pit and jungle gym, and failed in ballet. 

When I was 9, my aunt would come over and try to teach my piano lessons. I learned a song or two and where certain notes were, but that flame didn't sustain in me either. 

Surely, not every kindling is intended to spark a fire that heats a home, many are just like little shooting stars in our memory, still I cannot help but mourn their death... Perhaps that's the perma-guilt engrained in my personality from the opression of christianity throughout my youth. It's my fault those flames died, I didn't ensure their success... little missed funerals constantly dragging in the "what-ifs" of my past. 

I have not sharpened the art of discernment for choosing which little sparked flames are meant to become bonfires, and which ones are destined to snuff out... sometimes I incite myself with massive gumption over a failing flame and crash and burn energy that could have been more useful elsewhere... my little creative brain wants everything to live and thrive, alas that's not realistic. 

Some things die. 

This isn't really about something specific that's relevant in my life right now... it's just a vibe that has been threaded in and out of my life - I just skip a beat on "common sense in my life" sometimes, but at least my head-in-the-clouds mentality has brought me into a fully creative life through to this point, instead of being trapped in a cubicle... I won't elaborate on that but yeah, I am grateful!

So here are mere images of me with a piano, obviously you cannot hear the keys, as still images have not the power of audio. I suppose that's best left to your imagination anyway, because I am certainly no Beethoven! hah! 

Enjoy these moody, grainy images by Chris Vongsawat!

The set is all retrievable with the "playful" password (CLICK HERE if you need that password!) 

• Here is the full gallery: The Silenced Piano Photos 

***Currently in my Life***

I am definitely feeling the need to travel again, this time at home has been monumentally productive, but my wanderlust and desire to model with other creatives is burning greatly! 

I will be going on vacation with my other half to hike the Grand Canyon this weekend! I am really excited because I have not yet been there :) I know right? One of the wonders of the world, and it's practically in my backyard, and I haven't even seen it yet! I will definitely bring my drone to get some flying in :) stay tuned!

Again thank you so much for participating in my sexy-positive adventures! I truly appreciate you and get excited when you like and comment on my posts :)

Peace & Love!

*Kristy

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