Blog: Coping with Grief - Lulu (Patreon)

It is with heavy heart that I would like to share with everyone that my aunt has passed away this morning. I could not sleep due to the grief I am feeling. I am pushing all of the responsibilities from civilian work and Army to the right.

I got a call this morning while in training. It was very hard for me to hide my emotions while training soldiers. With permission, I was able to drive home early to handle the situation.

The hardest part is the sudden shock of the news. I expected it to certain extent, just didn't think it was goanna be this month or even today.

It is 2:24AM and I am making a character. Why? Because it allows my mind to dive into a world to escape. Some people view character making a job, but I view it as a way for me to cope with my emotions.

The best way to cope with grief is to channel that energy to something else. So, I did the best thing I could do: I made Lulu.

The story of Lulu is of her confusion of coping with grief after the passing of her parents. So, you took her in to help heal her fragile heart. When I made her, I was grieving, so I let out all my emotions and made her. I am not sure how it turned out, or how your experience with her will be, but I am sure you will feel part of my sorrow and grief of losing a loved one.

As life continues to throw shit at me, I continue to walk against the wind and swim against the tide.

The inspirations that come to creators are usually when they are experiencing an extreme emotion. In my case, I am grieving, confused, and frustrated. But guess what, I am not alone.

No need to worry about me fellow Patreons, I stand and fight for another day.

Thanks for all the love and wishes.