Nothing to see (Patreon)

I tried to force myself to draw today. Now it's really hard for me and it sucks.
The feeling that I am not posting updates is tearing me apart. But I can't draw, which makes it even worse. As if I need to learn everything again and look for strength somewhere.
I feel like I'm lost in the dark and I'm trying to find some way out. But so far I don't see anything.

P.s. Sorry that I can’t answer some messages now, I saw them, and I don’t answer not because I don’t want to, but because I can’t find the strength to answer right now.